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Blue balls out of hell!
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Out of town once again. While not being in chastity, Iam at a place where theres no privacy so I can´t fap. And I didn´t have the chance to do it the day I left or the day before either. Its been 2 weeks or maybe more since me and Maria had sex, which ofcorse really adds to it all...
Things have gotten more intense between Sofie and Maria, and with me being out of town I´m really cut of from it all. I never pondered before what would happen if they started having sex behind my back. Ofcorse I fantasized about other scenarios with them involved, but I never realized that they could do stuff just the two of them, untill now. I was texting Sofie the other day, and I wrote, like a joke, that: "Please, take my girlfriend, Sofie! Take her and make me your bitch!" Then I immediatley got this "massive" hard on, and also the sharp intense feeling of "fuck... why did I have to say that...?" This whole thing, with me almost always regretting starting stuff like this up is one of the core elements in my cuckold-personality. If I had a choice in the matter I wouldn´t be one! Its tough to balance the humiliation, shame, jealousy and extreme hornyness all at once. Now I know its my be only a matter of time before something happens that I can´t control and that I will end up regretting even more.
This has resulted in me having the worst blue balls in a long time. Iam one of those guys whos balls actually becomes blue when I don´t get to cum. Or atleast it happens alot faster to me. It only takes 2-3 days before it gets visible, and with enough teasing and frustraion like now it becomes a whole lot worse, alot faster. Like the other night when Sofie and Maria sent me a picture of the making out, it started to ache and sting downstairs, me knowing I could do nothing about it. The next day I could tell the diffrence. Not to mention the fact that with me out of town, Marias lover Adam can do pretty much what he wants to her. (But then again he probably would even if I was there aswell)
Fell asleep yesterday and dreamt of Maria, Sofie and Adam fucking. I woke up by the time Sofie started sucking Adams cock after taking Maria in the ass. I had cummed in my pants, but only a little. Not nearly as much as needed to get ridd of this pain! Not that Iam not used to it, but when Iam locked up at least I can find comfort in knowing that Iam locked up for my own good. That my beautiful and amazing queen knows whats best for me. (She really, really does!) Now, all I can feel is frustration and painfull sexual feeling. Iam just super jealous of everyone that gets to have Maria. AND super jealous of Sofie and Maria that can play withot me or anyone else!
There is a part of me that feels that maybe it´s time to step into somekind of "over me" and take control of certain aspects of this. Or before I know it, I could be serving drinks and cleaning while Sofie and Maria are having movie nights in the couch and I never get to feel anything but metal between my legs again. But... I just can´t right now!!
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Posted on : Oct 6, 2014
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