Should I blog? That's a question I've asked myself a good number of times. Although I'm 69 I've not had as an adventurous sex life as so many others seem to. However, over the years I guess it all adds up. How to present my experiences? As a chronological narrative or a random series of cameos with all the circumstance leading up to it. I've chosen to do the latter as it may prove to be the least boring.

Nevertheless, I will start with my first sexual awakenings. I have had a very deep preoccupation with porn for a very long time. My wife reckons that it has a lot to do with my parents and what they exposed me to. She may well have a point but my deep interest in the sex was there from the very beginning.

After ww2, due to the shortage of housing, my parents found themselves living at my Grandmother's house. My first awareness of sex was at the very early age of 4 when, during the summer period, we were often visited by my cousins. There were 2 boys both older than me and a girl who was the same age. As it was the height of summer we were all sent out bare-assed to play. My cock watching started here. It did not take us long to start playing with each other and quickly achieved some very nice springy erections. The elder who was 2 years older already had a very noticeable much bigger cock. I was very fascinated with them because both had been circumcised and I was very much uncut. My foreskin was very long and so my cock didn't look like theirs at all! I was a bit perturbed over the girl who only had a little cleft where her cock should have been. I just wondered how she'd lost it. I asked the eldest cousin why she didn't have one like us and very irreverently shoving his finger between the cleft just said ‘see girls don't have one'. They too were fascinated by my extra appendage and we were continually feeling each other's differences. We strutted around the garden totally naked proudly displaying our newly found erections that were seen by everyone in the family. No one took much notice really so it must have been ok. After this we always compared our cocks and played with each other when we met.

At the same time that I realised women didn't have an appendage like mine I had noticed they did have nice soft tits. My young cousin's hairless naked cunt was very visible but the grown up women had a very dark patch of hair where a cock should have been. My Mother used to sleep in a very light vest and it was always rucked up underneath her chin first thing in the mornings. I used to love to get into bed with her and snuggle up to her tits. I would also make a point of brushing my feet over the wiry hair of her cunt feeling it between my toes. It really fascinated me and she didn't' seem to mind.

My awakening took off when I had a chance sighting of my aunt Dawn's cunt which was covered with really thick black hair. I was so fascinated and obsessed with it that I worked out where and when I would have the best chance of seeing it again. My voyeuristic tendencies had already started. From my secret vantage point I managed quite a number of sightings of this fascinating area of her body. Here I was a compulsive Voyeur at the age of 4.

Well I guess a good number of folks have had that sort of awakening. Should I carry on?