The day consiousness came to me. The day i realized that i was a person and there was a lot of shit around me. Most of which are painful. Fun time for me. Life innocent and fun and i didnt go a day hungry. Learning love and life and family. I started to learn that i was a little different from most of my family at least in the way i thought and made choices. It was at this time i met my childhood friend / neighbor who was slightly older than me, His puberty was well into development and mine barely started. One day with my family all out he came by and we hung out and happened to come across some  vhs tapes with no labels. Plopped one in and what became the start of a very strange friendship which included watching porn and masturbating next to eachother as if it were nothing. I recall him describing what to do when  he first started the tape. He puts it in and without too much detail he instructs to me what to do when it happens. When it did happen i was very shocked and followed suit and this friendship with a twist began my journey into enjoying the finer things of both sexes. There were qualities of both that turned me on. Everything about women and guys bodies. Ive never found a man attractive as far as looks goes. The way a woman looks at least. But the act of sex and their equipment is something that i enjoy. Very strange but its my own. Many adventures after that but nothing with eachother. 

With the guilt of religion and society I felt a lot of pain in the beginning of my life I didnt tell anyone of course but it was there. Thankfully it would fade and i would become a much happier person. Dismissing both i enjoyed much of my time in my own mind and i just have to play in but at that time masturbation wasnt something that was done more than maybe twice a week. Much more fun things to do in life with friends and shit out side. 

 As with many families, times in the household became tough. Fighting became the most prevalant factor in our household and everyone fell into their own private worlds as a way to cope with having to live in such a manner. Mine was my room with a 486 and the birth of the internet. With only school and my perversions i spent a lot of time learning about computers and BBS.s and early interwebs. Here is where my family time was replaced with jerk off time when i wasnt at a buddie's house or playing a vidgame not doing homework. I learned from early communications via chat regarding life and feeling and many many more different pleasures.