I had never given it much thought before.  It was just routine.  I had always been on antidepressants since high school, that was the way it had been and always will be.  Why change it right?  Lol, maybe a somewhat emotionless mind and loss of that youthful jive so filled with thoughts of fucking other women, had faded forever and that was just what happened when people get older.  I didn't think much of it at the time when I just, for some reason didn't feel like picking up my refill.  2 weeks after stopping, that would change...

 After the bizarre manic crazed psycho I had turned into for about three days, what is left is someone who is much more assertive, much more confident, and much more horny.  It has been around a month now, but this person I am now hasn't changed.  Thankfully his maniac crazed mind has leveled down, but I am still so horny, so filled with desires of people doing beautiful things to my body.  I have had a foot fetish since third grade, I am 38 years young now.  But my fantasies have taken on new, convoluted,  and unimaginable dimensions.

 Over a month ago, I wouldn't have dared posted pics of myself, let alone openly telling people about how small my cock is, at least compared with the baseball bats I have seen here ;-)  Telling anyone about anything of my deepest fantasies would never have happened.  

 It's too late to go back.  I don't want to anyway.  What I thought was helping me became the pill that imprisoned me.  I love my new freedom.

Much love to everyone