After some serious thinking, research, and soul searching, not going through with full castration, at least at this time. Much of the current structure of my life depends on my continuing to present as standard male, and I've come to the (mildly sad for me) realization that much of what my wife values in my company is the very fact of my maleness; she's 100% straight, and on the rare occasions when she wants sexual attention, that's the only sort she's interested in, and only with me. Also, most of the traits she values in a partner are directly testosterone driven. I love her very much, and I'm too heavily invested in the relationship to mess with that.

I'm mostly attracted to men, and she's really the only woman I find sexually interesting other than on a purely visual level, so it's mildly tough for me sometimes, but we usually do OK.

Not sure what I'll do with the burdizzo. I hear they come in handy for making ravioli... 

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Or not; finally got the burdizzo in the mail, and I actually don't personally know anybody who could close it easily, even if their balls weren't in it. I'm not a bodybuilder, but I'm not particularly weak either; I can lift 100 lbs over my head. This thing takes a tremendous amount of force to close even when one has the use of one's full upper body strength, and is basically impossible to close at the angle one would need it at to self-castrate without serious physical strength. Since people's muscles often abruptly become much weaker when in pain, I can totally see why it would be impossible to use on oneself. Never mind...