As i have stated in my previous blogs, the love of panties started with thrill of humiliation.

At first the wave of humiliation was a huge turn on. I quickly found myself loving the feeling of the soft material holding tight around my waist, ass and cock. As time went on and I had internet connection I started looking for pictures of men wearing ladies underwear rather than women, and imagining I was them.

I soon come across a website showing forced feminization. I stopped fantasizing about being seen in the panties and started fantasizing about a woman forcing me to wear her panties. This opened up a new way of thinking on my sissy path. I soon spent my evenings in front of my laptop, humping my pillow in my quickly expanding lingerie collection. I would fill my panties with my sissy cum, clean up and tidy everything away. I found 10 minutes later I would be unpacking it all again.

I soon found myself fantasizing about being owned sissy bitch. I loved the idea of being tied to a bed and teased for hours. I started tying myself up during my pillow humping. I saw a video of a man being gagged with his mistresses panties, I instantly grabbed a pair and stuff them in my mouth.

I started following online mistresses. One of them made video blogs. I started listening to them while looking at pictures of her and her slaves. One night while doing this she was talking about what she had done to a slave that had pissed her off. I was half listening when I heard say the words “so I made him suck a cock”. I quickly went to the tab and played that part of the clip again and again. Humping the pillow with my pantied cock as hard as I could. I soon came while letting out a sissy whimper. I got up onto my knees and looked at my still hard cock in my panties dripping with cum. I then heard the line again “so I made him suck cock” I didn’t know how to feel. I tidied everything away. I couldn't sleep for hours. It was a good while before I slipped on a pair of panties again.

Wanking just didn’t feel right, it didn’t hold up to hours of pillow humping in my knickers. I couldn’t stop thinking about that video. Eventually I pulled on a pair and searched for the video. It was gone! I couldn’t find it anywhere! I found myself googling “sissy made to suck cock” I quickly found the phase “forced bi” I craved this material everynight, cuming just as hard as the first time.

My fantasy became being dressed as a sissy maid, on my knees with my mistress demanding I suck the cock in front of me.

When I returned to the pictures of men wearing panties I still dreamed of being them, but I found myself more interested in the bulge in his panties. I found myself imagining what it would be like to gently stroke the hard bulge with my hand, feeling the soft material. Moving on I start licking the bulge up and down, before gently lapping at the tip. I then stand up and the favour is returned. We then start rubbing our pantied cocks together, gently at first before embracing and full on humping each others bulges. We hump faster and harder and hold on tighter and tighter until we both fill our panties with our sissy cum.

As much as I try sometimes I can’t get these thoughts out of my head. I have that one online dominatrix to thank for them.