I used to think I was straight. There was a time I couldn't even watch straight porn; I only could watch lesbian porn. I love women, they are beautiful. Every part of a woman does it for me, but I am very sexually submissive and have a foot obsession. Guys, on the other hand, in no way do it for me. I was so unattracted to men's bodies (and still am) that the presence of a guy in my porn was too much.

I also like to be stimulated mentally though, and sometimes read erotica. Without the visuals, I could read about men and women, not just women and women as in videos. Reading about a man submitting to a woman does it for me, and one element of femdom that I enjoyed, in addition to foot worship, was women using strap-ons. I'm very submissive sexually, so the more submissive the act, the more it turns me on; it's more about the submissiveness of the act than the act itself. I wanted to see if I could enjoy my new-found fetish visually and discovered I couldn't, with one exception: black strap-ons were okay. I found that this discovery extended to straight porn as well: I could now enjoy straight porn as long as the cock was black.

I discovered a few talented writers who wrote erotica tackling the subject of "straight" white men discovering black cock and submitting to black men. Being submissive, I find a "straight" white man submitting to black cock even more submissive than that man submitting to a woman. I've found that while watching interracial porn, the black cock will receive as much of my attention as the beautiful white woman, although I can't watch white men sucking black cock (possibly because in all the porn I've found, all the white guys are old, fat, and ugly, with small cocks; I'm not sure that this would be the case were the scenario titillating, with a white man who was "attractive," and submitting not because he was forced to, but because why wouldn't you?) Although I still don't find anything about a man attractive, since I now find myself entertaining the thought of sucking big black cock (rather frequently), I don't really think it's accurate to self-identify as "straight."  Evey time I load up the internet, it doesn't take long (2 or 3 minutes) before I turn away from lesbian porn and start pursuing interracial porn.  I've become obsessed with Big, Black Cock.