This is not fiction.I have always wanted to write about this,because I've never really talked about it to anyone.

My first sexual encounter happened while I was in my mid-teens with one of my best friends,Paul. I was a normal teen boy,hormones raging,horny all the time.I collected all the nudie books I could,stealing them from my Father,or swapping them with friends.I couldn't help but notice though,alot of the time while I was masturbating looking at these magazines my eyes would become fixed on the penises of the men in the pictures.I would cum,then just dismiss the idea from my head about fantasing about men.I only like girls,I told myself.I only look at the mens penises in the pictures because they are with girls,I told myself.I didn't know what "bisexual" was.But I felt ashamed,for some reason.

I would often masturbate in our basement where I would have privacy.There was an old fold-out bed set up in the back of the basement in the furnace room.I spent alot of time on that bed looking at girlie magazines and masturbating.I don't really remember why,but at some point I started experimenting with anal play.I would stick a finger or two up my ass while I jerked off on the bed,using the big bottle of baby oil I had stolen from the bathroom closet as lubricant.I started experimenting further with candles.I found a fairly thick candle,lubed it up,and slowly pressed it up against my young asshole while I jeked off.I figured I'd go all the way,so I placed the candle straight up,on a towel,on the floor.I lubed up my asshole,got on my knees and squatted overe the candle.I squatted down and pressed my asshole over the candle.It took a little while,but finally,my virgin asshole relented,and the thick candle slipped in.I will never,EVER,forget that feeling.Fireworks went off in my head.I had never been this turned on.When I gained my composure,I slowly started working up and down the candle,my eyes still closed because I had never felt something so good! I jerked on my cock and came so hard I thought I would pass out.My asshole throbbed as I came,because the candle was stuffed up it.I had never felt anything like that.Lying in my bed later that night,I knew that's why gay guys had anal sex.It felt good.But I wasn't gay.I still liked girls.I just liked putting things up my ass while I jerked off.That wasn't gay.......right? Again,I was feeling guilty about what I was doing.What was wrong with me?Why am I so horny all the time?

Paul and I had been friends since we were about 11.We were part of a crowd,all normal teen boys doing normal things.We would often trade girlie magazines and talk about what girls we liked,and which girls we had jerked off to.On New Years Eve,my parents decided I was old enough that I didn't need someone to watch me while they went out to a party.Paul was coming over,and we'd hang out and watch a movie until the countdown.That was the plan,anyway.Soon after my parents left,Paul and I hit the liquor cabinet.After a few drinks,we were feeling fine,and let's face it,at that age it didn't take much to get drunk!After a while,Paul suggested we go to my basement to look at some of the girlie magazines I had stashed under the roll-out bed.We each filled a glass of booze and went downstairs.Soon we were both sitting on the bad,gazing at the naked ladies in the magazines,showing eachother which girls we liked.Since we were drunk and acting silly,Paul suggested we each jerk off in front of eachother to our favorite girl.I accepted the challenge! Both laughing,we placed our favorite pictures side by side on the floor.He pulled down his pants first and got on his knees in front of his picture.Being a bit more shy,he had to convince me to do the same.Finally,I pulled my jeans down,and dropped to my knees in front of my picture.When I pulled my underwear down,my hard cock popped out.Paul gasped,and said "Holy Shit!" I was taken aback,and said "What? What's wrong?" He was staring at my cock."Wow.You have a big dick!",he said.I kind of blushed,and said "Thanks". We each put a bit of the baby oil in our hands,and started jerking,on our knees,to our favorite pictures.After a while.I couldn't help but notice Paul wasn't looking at the picture of the naked lady spread out in front of him,he was looking at my dick as I stroked it ! I finally looked over at him,and got a look at his dick.It wasn't very big,but it was very hard,and it had an almost purple color to it.When he noticed I was looking at his cock,Paul made the move that would change my life.On his knees,he moved up right against me,our thighs touching.he slowly reached over and with his right hand,began stroking my cock.

I actually tensed up and tried to move away,saying "What the hell are you doing?" Paul didn't let go of my cock,though! "C'mon.I'll jerk you and you can jerk me." I have to admit,I was reluctant,but it actually felt pretty good having someone else stroking my cock.I relaxed a bit,still on my knees,and leaned back so my back rested against the side of the bed.Paul got up and moved to my right,laying on his stomach.His face was right next to my hard oiled up young cock as he continued to stroke me.My head was spinning.After a few minutes,my hips started moving up and down.Then the real shock came.Paul stopped stroking,moved his head in closer,and started kissing my cock.He went up and down the shaft,then started kissing and licking my balls as he continued to stroke me.I again tensed up,but because I was drunk,relaxed and let it happen.When I felt his mouth close over the head of my dick,taking me into his mouth,I actually moaned out loud,and relaxed completely.Paul could see I was enjoying this.He stopped sucking,I heard the "pop" when his mouth let go of my cock.He stood me up and started pulling my shirt off.He was breathing heavily."Take all your clothes off" he said.I stripped completely naked,and he led me back to the bad.I lay back,expecting Paul to take off all his own clothes,but that didn't happen.Looking back,he may have been ashamed of his body.He was bigger than me,and a bit overweight.I was very average height and very skinny.Anyways,Paul went right back to work.He was between my legs,sucking my cock.I especially liked how he would stroke my cock with his hand,while sucking and kissing my balls.This went on for a while.I then reached down and started stroking my own cock while Paul kissed my balls.He also lifted me a bit off the bed so he could lick my asshole.It was too much for me to take,and soon I was spurting cum all over my stomach.While I was laying back,catching my breath,Paul continued to fondle me with one hand,and rubbed my cum into my stomach and chest with the other.After a few minutes,Paul stood up and said softly,"Okay,it's my turn now." Just as he was pulling his jeans down,we heard the front door to the house open.My parents were home !!!!! We quickly dressed and turned on music to make it appear like we were just "hanging out".I didn't realize it then,but that night changed my life forever.