Having always been a relatively skinny 12/14 until last year. I find myself a more ample 14/16 after dabbling with mild non prescription hormones. At first I really did not like it and became very self concious about the small but obvious fattening around my breasts, bottom and thighs. It seems however to have gone the other way of late and I am underneath all the dislike of being slightly overweight starting to be very drawn to the idea of being deliberately fattened up by a guy who enjoys big girls but also knows it limits their appeal when compared to the skinny supermodel types that tend to be more the accepted idea of 'attractive' most of see as normal.

I know it fits my self profile of degredation and humiliation but I can't seem to shake the need to explore it right now. It will pass..............I hope!!! Maybe I might even go the other way and start obsessing about becoming a size 10 or even 8 one day..........doubtful though, too close to 'boyish' I guess but then who knows!!

Kate - currently reluctant but seemingly willing feeder....