...Me, that is in a matter of fact...just in my innermost beeing just like the avatar-pic....

it´s a little bit quite complicatet: as a teen i found out about wearing womens dresses and lingerie,.. and all those things.... and i was avery sweet boy with curly long hair and a real "babyface :-) a girlish one.and yes i´ve got small titties size a-cup....sometimes today i thinking of it , that some kind of dna-to many female hormons are in my body..cause my parents wanted a boy and tried it for four times..before they getting me a boy!!

 i rised up in a home with my mum, and four sisters,..so all arround me was this girly-stuff"! when i´m home alone i dressed up with my mothers vintage corselets, bodice pantyhoses and skirts and so on.and i´ve stolen a swimmingsuit from one of my sisters..a blue one..it fits perfectlyand later a sports body...so i can fit in tits and so...a kind of diapers made of towels so that my tiny dick was not to see..and i could rub it inside...there was no internet..no clubs no others like me....(i thought at this time.....and i felt PERVERT..THIS THINGS COULDNT BE OK !!) and so i did it all night long and when i´m alone..and roped ma dick between my thigs.....so i grew up..get to work and then to a bgger city...not big enough to live it out  although :-( .then i met a girl married and all was gone..we had fine sex.and then another thing rose up.my sense fpr BDSM ..so i realized,..that.nearby the "sissyslut" in my innermoust soul.......i am a sadistic and dominant man.......how could THAT be? times changes  internet was coming..all things changed......and since then i live my life in the world of BDSM and LOVE it..and i smile evry time i see a happy sissy....but in my innersoul.i´m a kind of sad gurl :-( 

what, when i knew about all this at the days in past...i´m looked like a cute femboi  i was one...so with a Lady  or a master who could form me into a sissy.....i would become a wunderful sissyslut..a real femboi.or maybe a shemale?! today i´m not longer gurlylike..:-( ...but  in my phantasies I AM so lets have fun here together..

maybe on day i teel this all to my female sub !..so we can live this so as we live the BDSM together! a i forgot..she knows about my bi-senses..and from time to time i´m in to fuck in a swinger club a cute boi or so..and together we have fun with blowjobs..bothsides ;-)   .so THATS not a problem!

i´m happy as that dominant man.for sure..thats a fact it is in me so as  the little sissy.....and sometimes the dominant man rises up against the sissy and is that MAN who want to fuck thes gurls.......so YES my innerspace is a kind of chaos sometimes.

...but in times when i´m alone for me.when i´m not in the mood for sadomasochism or movies or go to a bar........i go to my locker and pull out my sissy-stuff.......my pantyhoses and so on.and for a night i´m a happy little sissyslut...and dream my dreams..........because now i´m getting "old" and could not longer be that cute fenboi i was  in pasttimes

so  in a few days i want to put some pics of me in here.....i´m not a beautiequeen..i´m looking like a MAN ( 1,85m tall, 100kg, and in fact a Beard.(yes i like that to ;-) )but nowadays i´m having long hair again..and its naturally curly..!!  ),..but maybe a nice dress or so..could make it nearly sissylike?!

so...let´s see !!

bye cu later