Hi there anyone who actually reads this,

Since my last post a lot has happened in my life.

First things first, I am now in a relationship with a loving and caring (but quite vanilla, I regretfully add) woman who I care for very deeply. This is a long-distance relationship, as she lives in my home town, so I only get to see her once every month or so. (If she was not vanilla, this would be an amazing way to have her keep me in chastity, by making it so that I could only ever cum when I saw her, and still at her discretion... but I digress) 

On top of this, I have realised that I am transgender, and the weight that has been lifted after coming to that realisation has been incredible! I know now that I not only want to be a woman, but that I really do feel like one at heart and that for my long-term happiness, I will eventually go through HRT. (I am currently in the process of sorting that out, having been refered to my local gender clinic a few months ago) 

Whilst I am in a relationship with a great woman, I do still have the fantasies and urges to want to submit to, and serve a man in a relationship where I would be both his little girl, who has to wear nappies whenever I'm not being used, and his little bitch/slut whenever he wants to make things a little kinkier in the bedroom. I understand this fantasy is quite a big leap, but I imagine that if things ever don't work out with my current partner, I would probably actively seek out a relationship in which I would at least partly be in the little role for as long as is feasible, with the real goal of taking it 24/7 (but I don't know if that will truely ever happen) 

 I have not posted for a while mainly because a lot of my time has been taken up by both my relationship and by other committments (University, Band etc) but I do hope to be posting a bit more regularly in the summer, when my girlfriend will be spending 2 months abroad, so I will have a little more time to create captions to help indulge my fantasies.

Finally, whilst my horniness levels seem to have gone through the roof since being in my relationship ( I mean, she really is very attractive) In the last week I have been trying to refrain from masturbation. As a result, I have gotten back into my vibe of really enjoying seeing sissies and cis-women in nappies and made me realise it is really who I am and that I both shouldn't and don't want to hide that from a future partner.