March was very short as a no fapper, so i started again in april, we will see how long it will go, i hope i can stand the urge, today is just the second day but i'm already here commenting nasty things to fat girls and matures images and i'm pretty hard, but I can handle it, i just have to stop watching porn sadly, because it's very important for me.

I realize I'm an addict to masturbation a while ago, most of the time i don't thing about it and just come here and jerk off in front of a camera on chat and enjoy myself, but to be honest, it's kind of ruining my life, and i'm in the first line, watching how mizerable i'm sometimes, and how weak that I can't stand a so simple urge. I'm still a virgin because when i slept with my girlfriend, i couldn't keep it hard long enough to put the condom on and get it inside, well, most of the time i was drunk as well, but when I wasn't it was just a bumer, so she left me obviously, and i get depressed and started masturbate more and more, and sometimes i just realize i'm doing the worst i can do, because the masturbation i was always hungry so i ate a lot and get fat.

At the moment my depression is kind of over, i started to work out and started a tassel before i normalize my eating habits, not gona drink or smoke in this month and don't go to any party, hopefully at the end of the month it's not gona be a struggle to keep up this lifestyle, maybe sometime i will drink a beer or smoke a cigarett later, but not gonna jerk off anymore. That's something i have to leave behind, 27 years was enought jerking off for my life.