If you read my previous blog entries, you know how I got started fucking big white dicks in college. That guy I met at the party...it wasn't until after the third time he fucked me that I even learned his name. It was Ryan, and he introduced me to a couple of his friends.  I noticed they all had a certain look to them. Tall, broad shouldered, square jawed. And I found myself wondering if all of them had big dicks. And yes, for the most part they did.

It didn't take long before I was "partying" with one or more of them. I told myself I was just experimenting and trying different things. The truth is, not all of them were THAT big, but I just loved the way they fucked me. Hard and aggressive, which to my surprise I found that I really enjoyed. It was so much different (and better) than sex with my boyfriend at the time.

Even when they would say really offensive things like comment on how tiny my boyfriend's dick must be, or how all asian girls were born to suck white dick, and made me say things like "me love you long time" I felt like I should be more offended or bothered by all of it. And yet I just kept going back to them for more. Honestly I was a little disturbed by how much I liked being treated the way they treated me, and it was sometimes really difficult to make sense of it, or to figure out why I responded positively to their horrible treatment. It was hard to accept the fact that I was getting really turned on by those things.

But whenever one (or sometimes more) of them would call me or come knocking at my door, I was only too eager to join them for a night of fun. They gave me the nick name "little cindy fuckslut" for my eagerness to submit to their big white cocks.