Well now what do I do. I feel a little guilty and I have not even done anything. I will have to tell him soon. That still leaves my problem of lack of fullfillment. Last night was bad. I was so horny it was driving me crazy and he was watching that stupid game! Although it probably would not of been much different game or no game. I went to bed early last night but I certainly did not sleep. I started watching some videos on x hamster and at first it was fun. I watched some lucky women be restrained, ropes and being spread wide, so that was hot and it was not long and my pussy was getting nice and wet of course I was rubbing my clit on and off too. I watch some women having sex, which is a another interest of mine, so then I really start to fringer my wet pussy,(love even saying that) I was think about being apart of some of this fun. Wish so badly I could have it right then. I was a nice orgasum, they always are:) I was still shaking and feeling my body when I got really sad or mad, probably just frustrated! Then I just could not shake that feeling that I was on the outside and will never be where or who I want to be. I dont know if it is a good ideal to be here or not