Jill flew out this afternoon with two girlfrinds for a 5 day dive trip. I saw some of the flight info and the reservations were made though some fucking singles club. Jill wouldn't tell me much more than where they were going and that she didn't need me to pick her up from the airport on Sunday nite. As usual I am feeling totally worthless and jealous. I am sure only a cuckolded "man" can understand the pathetic mixture of feelings I am going through. This last week I was impotent with her even with my blue pills and she was pretty mean to me until today when she was just obviously excited to be going on her trip. While she was doing her hair after her shower she let me lick her for quite a few minutes in the bathroom. I LOVED it! It is soo fucking humiliating for me to be submissive and please her like that while we both fully know that she will be with other men before i see her the next time. Pathetic I know. I cant help it.

The two women she is on the trip with are my worst nightmare and best fantasy combined sort of. Both of them are goodlooking divorced ladies in their early 40's. They have always come off with me as men haters but I know it has alot to do with what Jill has told them about me. I know for sure that one of them Melissa, knows that Jill cuckolds me because Jill and her have been together with other men. Melissa is very pretty and is obviously out to play. Kind of seems like she is a gold digger but Jill is always telling me that she meets all the college guys when they are out together. Teressa was divorced a couple years ago and last year got a boob job and is calling Jill every weekend to go out dancing with her. Jill has told me that she thinks Teressa is her type and that she thinks about her sexually. I know Jill had a couple of lesbian experiences a long time ago but it is still weird to think of teressa as competition for me. I know I loose anyway.

 I would LOVE to talk to someone right now or this week while she is gone. If you would like to talk message me and...