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transitioning
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Transitioning
deciding to keep a log of my experiences of transitioning, as up to date I have currently been on estrogen on and off for two years and have decided to go full time on them with the addition of Spiro, which gets rid of the last of my testosterone (at last), over the past two years my emotional state has been a rollercoaster ride and also the physical changes have been exciting and troublesome, but mostly exciting. think the biggest change has been my emotional behavioral changes, I know there is many studies out about the feminization of mtf brains, in my experiance i seem to have become more empathetic towrd woman, I was at my best friends the other day and my freinds girlfriend was telling him off for something and i sided with her, ive never done this before it made me feel quite strange. I have an increasing attraction toward men or should i say masculinity, before I sarted hormones, even though I knew I was transgender I never looked at men that way and and at that point i was probably what would be considered as, a sexual, i wasn't attracted to women or men, although i think i may have mistaken my admiration for the female form as attraction, while on estrogen, this mistake has become apparent. My sexual orientation, now sways toward men, this probably wouldn't coincide with transgender studies as most of them say that female hormones do not change sexual orientation, now for the guys. I first noticed a guy in his garden with his shirt off and after 5 minutes i realized i was standing there with my mouth wide open staring at his pecks and sharp lines, I felt really embarrassed I have never done this previously, also started noticing bulges in certain places. This is quite scary to me, I sometimes find myself standing and staring, I hope they don't notice sometimes, but im sure they do, and the whole thing is about masculinity, its like i am comparing myself to them on a masculine scale, realizing i am different and finding it erotic
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Posted on : Oct 17, 2012
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Commented on Dec 25, 2012
I am taking something different, but it is having similar effects. I look at women more now and see their clothes, their walk, their composure, etc, and wish I could could mimic them. They do it all so effortlessly!
Females are superior to males in any number of ways.
miko
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