*Dear alice, Although our time together as friends was cut short by my dissapearance I hope you can learn to truly understand the reason I chose to do what I did, I will finally admit to you my feelings then maybe it will help you realise why I left, from the moment we met I was sure you was the one, you always seemed to be so perfect even on the days you didn't even try to be, you were always the one person I felt I could spend my life with even if it meant just been a friend, I do love you and I will till my very last breath but we both know that doesn't matter, we both know that your love will always belong to Matt, I know when I was with you two I always seemed to be the third wheel, never important and never needed, just a spare person for when you needed someone and you couldn't have each other, guess none of that matters now, I just hope that Matt will one day be able to see what I see when I used to look at you, hope he one day realises that you are more special than anybody past, present and even future, I also hope he can one day realise that you love him as much as I do you and maybe then he will finally come to realise that he does love you back, I hope you are happy and well, hope life treats you like you truly deserve to be treat, your friend always in spirit, Jason*