Saturday morning: a week full of im chats full of sex and tease, so frustrating. Usually they occur in the morning and so I spend the day in work frustrated as hell. I get a little space mid afternoon when it's quiet and I can secretly fap to a few pics. I've found a loose hold with my left hand feels amazing, such a gentle but teasing action. It becomes unbearable after a while and I strain for a firmer pressure. Relief comes quickly after and I wonder whupy I spend so much time in such a state. I could've built a bridge to the moon with this energy;)

While starting and the weak pulses of electricity are flowing through my cock, I get a text from a lap dancer I once paid for "dancing lessons". 4 hours in a club being ground by her basically. We've met a few times but money is always the subtext and tonight she wants e to come out (presumably to pay for her drinks). I text back like a dick and tell her I have a gf and am away (lies). I wanted to throw in something sexual just to see how she'd react and if it will help this session. I try "but I still cheat x" No reply. 

My on/off Internet slave brat messaged last night asking me what had got my dick hard recently, what I missed about her and how she could make it up to me.

Dearest Brat,

I have missed you. Missed your whinging and whining, missed your whimpering and your objections to doing anything fun. Do you still have my condoms? The xl stud size? I want you to imagine taking it out of its wrapper and then rolling it carefully down your master's thick cockshaft. Any nicks from your nails and you'll get a slap? Do you understand? Then I want you to take me deep into your throat until you're almost choking and do your best to make me cum quickly. You're such a whore it should be easy;) Am I making you feel uncomfortable? All this talk of long cocks, heavy balls and white cum cream? Your holes belong to me and I bet it's already wet, you dirty girl. So being away has made me quite angry and I think I'm going to have to humiliate you further, I want you to give me a list of 5 things that make you uncomfortable and I'll decide which we'll do.

All my love,

Jaded xoxo

It's such a turn on for me playing the alpha male, girls are such brats it's lovely to put them in their place and get some real pleasure from the tension. I'm thinking of taking voice lessons so I can command them in a gruffer more authoritarian way, training so my muscles are bigger for higher intimidation value, cock weights so that my already long cock is even more impressive and I always try and show dominant forceful body language in the bedroom. I train kegels and with a fleshlight stuck in the mattress for thrusting technique and orgasm control. I devote my life to sexual pleasure.