If you read my profile, know a bit about me. Prior to the divorce, the ex went crazy and decided to indulge me in many things sexual.

E-Bay became my favorite shopping place. Loose Socks from Japan, 100 cm socks from Sock Dreams, Legearmers. She would let me wear them with her. Here are two pics from my old profile:

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Yes, that is really me getting my cock rubbed by some wonderful thick socks.

So, I tell the ex, I want to be tied up. I want her to do whatever she wishes to my cock. There was only one rule: only she would determine when I would cum and if I got close, I had to tell her. I would not be allowed to cum without permission.   

I taught her how to frog tie my legs ( http://www.imagefap.com/photo/1931286979/1048443694_80863aeec3_o.jpg ) so that I was completely open to her. I would wear my cock rings around my cock and balls and one on the shaft of my cock too. My wrists were tightly bound to my ankles so that I could not touch myself and have and bring myself to orgasm if the teasing got too intense.

She would blindfold me and put sloppy amounts of lube on her hands teasing and barely touching only selected parts of my cock making it hard. Her hands were like feathers that created a burning sensation on the tip of my dick. She would tease like this, giving me no real stimulation at all until pre cum started to ooze from the tip of my cock. She loved the salty taste of that clear liquid and would lick it all off without so much as giving me any pleasure at all. Then it was time to let me go soft. She would allow me to eat her musky pussy until my my cock was completely flacid. And she would start all over again. This would go on for hours, each time the ache to orgasm became more urgent, almost umbearable. She would use her bullet vibrator on my head for only seconds at a time and put me in her pussy only for her pleasure.

Then she discovered some things. The power of control.  The realization that I was helpless to control my orgasm in any way. That I needed her hands and her mouth on me. NEEDED, not wanted.

She would not give away that power without a struggle. Something had to be given back to her. But in my helpless state, what could be given? My cum. She wanted it, all she could slurp from me. She wanted it before I would be allowed to have my release. Some here have been milked anally. I am here to tell you that you can have your cock sucked to the brink, stopped for a minute and sucked softly, teasingly and slowly. Oral milking,The cum oozes and flows out without any pleasure of an orgasm. Each session of starting and stopping brings more cum and even more intensity until it becomes almost unbearable. Then it does become unbearable. The ache, the urge, the throbbing, the whimppering. OMG! Heaven.

But that power that she learned to love was so wonderful for her. I had to ask her permission, "Please. Can I cum in your mouth?", I would ask. "Not yet." Each time I came close to cumming I was required to tell her so that I would not cum without her approval. She would do this for hours. The begging and the asking eventually turned to whimperring. Finally, she would look up and say, "Please cum in my mouth." But there was one thing she would never do. She would never go faster and harder as I came closer to orgasm. It was the opposite, she would slow down and suck softer the closer I got (girls, make a note here!). Other times, she would just decide that I had had enough and not stop. I would tell her that I was going to cum and expected her to repeat the teasing all over again but she would not stop. I was not given permission yet so I would fight to restrain my release. She would just suck ever more gently until I had some of the most intensive orgasms in my life!

Eventually, I would ask her not to swallow and to hold that cumshot in her mouth and kiss me. but that's another blog entry!