I am so confused about myself

Really it isn't fair I go to the strip club and The Girls get me hard 

I want them. Than I go home and I want to be a woman again

Does any one have any answers for me 

I don't normally go to strip clubs but even with woman on the street

 I see them I want them 

But than when I'm alone I want to be a woman?

I mean ok so maybe a Woman can bring out the man in me 

How long could it last? Would I eventualy revert back to wanting to be a woman

Or here is another good question 

If A woman decides to be a part of me 

How would she take it if she found out her man wants to be a woman?