I have discovered, much to my pleasure that if I had the makeup skills a wardrobe when I was a younger boy, I would look exaclty like the pornstar Dylan Ryder! I already was on the verge of having that feminine bob. It makes me wonder if I just knew that type of girl who takes pleasure in femming a boy like myself. It really wouldn't have taken much effort. Come to think of it there was one time in early secondary(middle) school where a rather odd yet sexual girl randomly commented that I would make a good girl. I was a an extremely self-conscious thin boy and my over awareness of my mannerisms inadvertantley made them a lot more arkward and feminine. Instead of looking dismissively at the girl, I sould have said something like "I don't see how", then she probably would have repsonded somthing like "if you were wearing the girls uniform, some makeup and a wig then you would". If I would maintain that I still didn't think so, she would have been the type to advocate giving it a go.

Back to Dylan Ryder. If I was, say 13 years old and I was madeup and dressed fully to look like that it would have had a profound affect on my life. Whilst glammed up I could get used to identifying as pretty, effectively as a girl in many scenarios. What would it mean for my romantic attraction to girls in masculine mode, if the beauty in glam mode de-mistified it as something unworthy of attraction, or even mundane. On the flip side, Identifying as pretty, fragile and feminine... How would that make me feel about big masculine men? Would they become the mysterious other which generates attraction?