Hello to all

Well i am a 50 year old who began crossdressing probably around 8 years old. Like most of you it started with Mom's panties and progressed to her bras, lingerie make up and wig. Nothing was more exciting than dressing completly and draming of being a woman and getting the affection i saw real girls getting from men. I dreamed of sucking cock with my red lips, Mom,s makeup and wanted to know how good it felt to get fucked.

 I was jelous of the girls i saw around me every day but could say nothing.

There was an older boy who would call once in a while and he was the first i confessed to that i wear lingerie and make up. We would talk and i always managed to make him cum. My regret is i never asked him if he would kiss me! My regret is i never asked if i would meet him or hold and suck his cock. I also confessed to him i would fuck myself with my Moms douch or anything else i could find that looked like a cock.  I still to this day jerk off to the thought of him kissing and caressing me and me sucking his cock as an early teen.

I thought i was the only one and i kept my desires very hidden. My regret was not realizing in my high school of 500 students there had to be one or two others and not looking closely enought to find them.  I was a jock, yes and i loved it but when i went home i would slip into panties and a bra and immediatly jerk off to being a woman.  I know there must of been others like me.

Did my Mon know?? I am not sure but you can never put the closet or lingerie drawer back exactly the way it was.

My first cock was at 16 from an older man. it was a bit funny because although he was working hard at seducing me he didnt know i wanted his cock in my mouth so much. we were drinling and he started to massage me. First teh shoulders then the back. Soon he had me undressed and I have never been so hard in my life.

he began sucking me and was really supprised when i grabbed his cock and stuck it in my mouth. It was WONDERFULL!! His cock was so hard, the head nice and sift with a shaft so hard. After a bit i rolled over on the couch and wanted him to fuck me. He climed on top of me but i was too dry. Oh how i wanted to get fucked!!!!  My regret.

My first great love was a girl. She just struck me when i saw her and she had no tits but huge nipples. we had sex whenever we could and i loved sucking on her nipples, they were like little cocks.  We were foolong around one day and she tied my hands behind my back. I struggled but could not get out and asked her to jerk me shile i was bound. I was in heaven!!  It was fantastic!!. From that night on I knew i was a sub and loved being bound. I would find ways to sit at her feet or start at her legs and worship every inch of her. she would use her nails on my cock and I was in heaven!! It was wonderfull. She would squeeze my cock hard and force it through her hands and again it was unbeleviable. One day i was massaging her and she took some of the baby oil and covered my cock and squeezed and twisted it and i could not believe the fantastic feelings. My regret is we broke up

Am i a faggot  maybe but I worship wonem so much i wanted to dress like them  feel what they feel and be adored like they are.

Am i sub?? definetly