I am finding that living on the fence about my identity has become more stressful on the brain. My outside life as the man I physically am is still the same. My opposite identity of Molly is taking over the brain more and more. I know that now I can not physically change myself into a women but I am no longer the man I once was. I am living two separate lives and no one knows it. I'm living between heaven and hell.

The thing I love about the internet is the anonymity that you can have. Its that simple to become female. No surgery, no processes, no expense. Just call yourself MallSlut4Daddy in Yahoo Chat and see how many instant messages you get. Most people have at least thought about acting as the opposite sex online. It doesn't matter if you gender bend in a chatroom or on World of Warcraft its still your extension of your desires. This is essentially how Mollypop was born.

A long time ago I discovered that I enjoyed chatting with people online while I masturbated. I'm not stupid and I quickly came to terms with the fact that there were no women on the internet. I figured what the hell I will just act like a female and I will find someone to chat with. It became a fun game. There were a few girls with a few different personalities before Molly came around. Erin was the first, feisty, and more the basis for who I would later become. Jenna was more of the popular Ms. Suburbia girly girl who furthered the desires to be an actual female

Molly began to develop two years ago and she still continues to figure out her identity. I can be a bitch and be quick to voice my opinion. I am tough, funny, geeky, and dirty all at the same time. I am best friends with a lot of guys but secretly I'm fucking their sisters. I am a modern, liberated woman. I make being a whore cool again.

But let's get one thing clear, I'm no sissy.  I am the younger sister of the guy you hated in high school. I am the facebook version of Kathryn from Cruel Intentions Mixed with THC and G4 TV. I can also still act wild and reckless. Life is too short not to have fun.

It is one thing to play dress up and give yourself a name but what is your personality like? Who is that girl? When I look at the world through the eyes of Molly I love what I see. It is so different, bright and colorful. I absolutely love being in this state of mind. I want to live like this everyday for the rest of my life.

Please don't foget to check me out at

howtheinternetchangedmysexuality.blogspot.com

xoxo

Mollypop