I love masturbation.  Alot.  

I've been doing this for quite some time.  I've masturbated in bed, at the computer, in the shower/bath, outside, at work, in the car, in an ABS, pretty much anywhere I could get a hand on my dick I was having a tug o war contest with myself.   

So how do you masturbate when your dick stops getting hard?  Well I'm only about 5 1/2-6" uncut when hard.  When flacid (sitting here) I have about 2 inches covered by foreskin.  Everything seems to (mostly) conform when I'm wearing panties.  

Last night I was in the mood again (which has been a lot lately) so I slipped into my newest outfit.  It was a matching bra/panty set blue with white dots, and white ribbons on the straps that clip to the black hose.  And since I can't keep my hand out of my crotch it is safe to say my hand was wandering.  

You have to keep adjusting, and trying different things to find the result that best pleases you.  But with just the tip of my head peeking from the side of the panties, and the loose skin from my (now smaller?) testicles I find that I am able to stimulate it much like a women would while masturbating.

You can feel no bulge like a penis and with precum (and a little water or lube) it made a texture similar to a vagina.  Now this was kinda cool.

I have always wished I could have a pussy for at least 24 hours.  I have had that fantasy since I was 15 years old.  I always thought how I would spend the whole day masturbating, lezzing out with my hot female friends, and being a general whore with cock.  The idea of being penetrated in a cunt really excities me.  I get so jealous of seeing these women masturbating, and then they get to put the dildo in their pussy and their ass.  I am a big fan of pussy after all, I still enjoy it and I do wish I had one.  

Now by this time I am fully engaged in rubbing my clit and the rest of the area, It was just as I would imagine a real woman getting off. I loved to look down and see my hand working my pussy over, in my new panties and thigh highs, the little ribbons attached.  It looked so pretty.  This is what I always wanted to see when I looked down, pleasuring myself and no cock in site.  

Continuing on my thought path I said I wonder if I could introduce my dildo to this, after all I don't do much of anything without it these days.

I had to make some half time adjustments but the end result was a feeling and a the visual of the dildo inserting where a "real" pussy would be. As the dildo penetrated me it's shaft ran along the underside of the penis head (thats all crammed inside) to provide stimulation.  Words can not describe how cool it was, just the site alone for a minute was a good enough sensation.  

But it was the hand that won overall.  By this time I have relocated to my bed and I am just rubbing my new cunt.  I picked up a tube of lube yesterday called WET and it's really nice.  Combined with my new outfit and freshly shaved pussy it made my rubdown even much more hotter.  

The orgasms I had when jacking off had become weak over the years.  No longer was I experiencing the same pleasure as I used to.  My orgasm while jilling off was much more intense, and even more so if I am fucking myself.  I am now experiencing at least three orgasms a day without ever even getting hard.  

*Note*

I enjoy discussing my daily thoughts and actions with the readers.  My personal/private life in the mindset of a female is awesome and I want to share every moment, detail and discovery I make on this journey.  Please feel free to comment.  Much love.  

Mollypop....