Inspired by a message I got here on imagefap, I came to the conclusion that I should tell you also something about my motivation to change my life completely and want to become a bimbo. Maybe, if you know a bit more about my former life, it's easier to understand why I wanted to change it. (I'm sorry, if this posting sounds dull to you.)

Well, for nearly all my life, I have been a dull person–and mostly by my own choice. I wanted to get very good grades at school, to go to university to become someone important, to once be a respected, leading figure. I don't know where this ambition came from, though. But , of course, it was clear to me that it wouldn't be easy to reach that goal...and was prepared to work hard.

When I realized that it would be even harder for me, because of the fact that I am a *girl*, I developed a mental state of ignoring my gender. I didn't actually *hate* being female, but I simply declined to deal with it. When most other girls started to become aware of their femininity and to deal with it one way or the other, I osten- tatively didn't pay attention or even belittled them. As for me, my sex was completely without importance. I never did any make-up, never wore clearly feminine clothing, rarely if ever went to parties etc.

I became a quite lonely person, and–worst of it: all my effords, all my hard work didn't seem to pay off: I never was that good student I so badly wanted to be, I rarely got any good marks on my tests, I didn't succeed the way I had planned. When I actually realized how dull, disappointing and cheerless my life had become, I started to think anew...I wanted it to change. But how?

Then, out of a sudden, it was perfectly clear to me–and I still don't get it, why I wasn't able to see it years before: There was no point in chasing a goal that turned out to be simply utopic. There was no point in fighting all the time, in denying myself all the fun of live, in living a dull and lonely life. Didn't I get suggestive remarks by guys now and then–even if I considered myself completely boring? Well, when I tried to look at me in the mirror with the eyes of a guy, I could indeed see an attrative girl: mother nature was actually very well on my side. So, hey, why shouldn't I start to make use of it? Why shouldn't I stop to bother myself with all those tiring stuff my life used to be filled with, and turn into a lovely, attractive girl who just tries to enjoy life, have fun and stops worrying?

I realized that those girls who started to do so years ago already, were absolutely right. And as I used to belittle them, I now want to become like them...and even better. I know how to work hard...this time it won't be futile.