For those, who wonder where I've been and what happened about my plan of a full year in chastity:

Well, I failed. It took me a long time to write this, but it is at it is.

And I'm sorry for disappointing you. I had a terrible accident in February and I'm lucky to be alive. It had nothing to do with my chastity cage, but still it has been removed as I was brought to the hospital. Soon as I was conscious again I had to answer some real emarassing questions about it. As if the physical pain from my injuries weren't enough it became even worse. I was becoming paranoid, thinking that everyone around me was talking about "the guy who had a steel tube around his dick". When they finally let me go home, I barely left my room in order to avoid talking to people. It's hard to remember, what was the last time I felt so bad about myself. In my rage, pain and sorrow I threw away most of my sissy things. And so I started jerking off again. Sometimes I would jerk off 5 times a day. I was out of control and masturbation became something painful. Also because I did it to distract myself.

Lots of things changed and I ended up falling in love with this one girl. I even grew myself a beard (lol) and we started a really caring relationship. The world was becoming okay, again. At least for a while. We had sex for several times. And I really enjoyed it. But after a while she got concerned about why I sometimes had trouble "getting it up". Well what should I say to her? Of course, I found some lame excuse like being stressed or tired. But in the end (sure, not ONLY because I couldn't satisfy her) we broke up...

You can't hide from your cravings forever, some may say… So I've ordered a new chastity tube. And other new fun stuff. Now, I finally found a mistress that knows how to train me and guess what: I'm back on the Sissy road. And I'm more determined than ever ;)

So, I hope you guys are not mad at me. You'll be seeing a lot more of me in the future!

Kisses 

Jenna