after years of reflection, i have found that there are five main attributes a person should have to lead a happy, fulfilling life.

1. to be handsome, good looking, sexy, not ugly at least.

2. a large or at least above average sized penis.

3. intelligence.

4. ambition and work ethic.

5. high self esteem, confidence.

you dont need all of these, you could be perfectly happy with just two or three.i on the other hand would settle for just one, any one! unfortunitly, i have none of these. im ugly, have a small penis, im pretty stupid, i have no ambition to do anything with my life and i have seriously low self esteem, maybe none at all. im also self-loathing and self-defeatist.

here on imagefap i thought i could be who i wanted to be but thats just as unfulfilling. i dont have a super hot sister who i fuck all the time, or a hot milf for a mom. i dont even have a sister, instead i have a brother, who hates me, and who im jealous of, because has a huge penis. and my mom is a normal fifty year old women. i also live at home which is sad cause im twenty-four. so the pics on my profile of my "mom" and "sister" are not infact my mom and sister but are just random people whos picture i stumbled upon on the internet. most, if not all of the blogs ive written previously, about my various sexual exploits are lies, or fantasy. in reallity, ive only had sex twice.

my first time was when i was seventeen. she was eighteen and fat. we were very drunk of course. we done it in her car, after about ten minutes of poking her vag with my cock to no avail, i gave up and she drove me home. i didnt even cum, not to mind her! needless to say we never spoke again. she probably told all her friends that i was a shit fuck aswell. seven and a half long years went by and i thought id never get a chance to redeem myself but finally the chance came. it was last january in fact. again she was a fat chick, but i didnt really care. of course, we were both very drunk. we went back to her place, we took off our clothes and proceeded to fuck (try to fuck anyway). fifteen minutes of me humping her went by and again, nothing. it was like flogging a dead horse so i just quit. i didnt cum and she didnt either. she spared my feelings by not kicking me out of her bed at least. the next morning i sneaked out of her bedroom while she pretended to be asleep. i know she was pretending because i saw her eye open and when i looked she quickly closed it again. of course we never spoke again.

im generally useless with women. when they talk to me i just turn to jelly and make a fool of myself cause i dont know what to say, and cant think of anything, so usually say something stupid and act really nervous and twitchy. i hate guys who can talk to girls like its the easiest thing in the world. and when you listen to what they say its usually just crap. i often say to myself " why cant i just say something like that" but it never comes out right. if i was good looking i could get by with my looks, if i had a big penis i could whip it out, and if i had self confidence i could talk without making a dick of myself. just one of those attributes and id be ok, but i have none.

im not just a failure with women either. my life in general has been one big failure. ive done numerous college and university courses and finished none of them cause when it came to the tests i just couldnt be bothered and i just couldnt do it anyway. no intelligence or ambition. now i work in a dead end job that i hate and come home and fap til i fall asleep. i go out at weekends with the few good friends i do have but what use is it if you cant pull a women.

this is the first time ive written all this down and it makes me realise even more, how pathetic i am. so now that ive got this off my chest i can go back to my shitty life and being an internet pervert.