This won't be long.

The actual seriousness of this conversation has escaped some, but there is no need to apologize.  I know I set an expectation of my blog and this is a different turn for it.

I have not slept well since this girl and I began talking again, and neither has she.  She's probably up, in her room, reading at the moment.  However, sometimes we're up until early in the morning (for both of us) talking.  She's been starting to compare me to him in her arguments with him.  As a result, he's demanding she cease any contact with me.

I like the fact that I'm her example of a good boyfriend, vs his example of a bad boyfriend, but it definitely has put me in new territory.  While she's still trying to repair her relationship with him, I'm becoming the person who is making her happy and filling her time.  He either ignores her or calls her a cunt and bitches at her.

Until I know he's out of the picture, I keep wavering between feeling like I'm boyfriend material and feeling like I'm just the gay best friend.