When my wife, who does not approve of me crossdressing or using porn, told me yesterday she had to spend the night and morning looking after her ill aged mother.  I was overjoyed a 12 hours plus of cross dressing wonderful. After she left I opened my secret store and dressed in my long line bra 6 suspender tight girdle and plain cotton panties and a white slip. I felt the and thought I was the perfect picture of a mature lady, I just felt so good peaceful and girly. I settled down to an evening of looking at lingerie websites and looking at porn with a bottle of wine. A wonderful evening with 2 lovely slow wanks. When I was ateen I dressed up wanked and had no more interest and undressed now I love to wank and keep my lingerie on.

I was in a mellow mood and thought why do I cross dress, the answer is I dodn't know and never have I just have this deep inner desire to dressup and it makes me feel so girly and I know its wonderful. Do othercross dresser know why they do it I would like to know.I felt like a girl at times when I was a very young before I was sexually aware. I feel now I maybe should have had a sex change, I guess its too late at 68.

When I went to bed I had to change my clothes they were damp with sweat it was a very warm night, and had cum stains over them. I put on my pink cotton bra and pantie set ( see earlier blog)and thought more about dressing up as I think of Crossdressing then feel asleep.

This morning I started the day in my favorite  way when I have a night alone I set out my clothes for the Day a light weight 4 suspender girdle a 2 hook support bra white lacy panties a ctton skirt and a balck indian top. I have a very poor selection of stockings and have on a laddered pait of tan ones. I will go to a nearby town and buy a couple of packs of stockings later in the day.

Now I am dressed up on my favorite Imagefap and felling so lady like it is wonderful.

I really can't care less about why I crossdress I just know I love it and it makes me fell so good