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Disclaimer: any information given below is purely for entertainment purposes only.
Here is a secret: I lick and suck my own cock and balls.
Self-sucking, or auto-fellatio, or whatever else it may be called, has been a favourite and secret pastime since my mid-teens. I have received great head from lovers, but the truth is that I give me the best fellatio I have ever experienced. I still like to receive oral from other people, but self-sucking is the finest treat I can give to myself. It is the ultimate form of self-pleasure, a potent mood-improver, and so good that it is the closest thing I know to magic.
Any penis-bearing person reading this humble account who has the interest and time and ability and privacy should make self-sucking a pursuit. The practice is free, will keep you fit, and is novel and rewarding. The physical and sexual high is positively drug-like. The main downside can be the time it takes to develop the strength and flexibility to be able to take your cock into your mouth - and it is only really fun at this level of ability. The other drawback is the range of possible ailments that can occur from not being patient and careful in developing the ability. You need to be careful early on. Patience is the key.
If you are 'straight' you might feel weird sucking a cock and tasting cum, even if your own. Since most males have in effect been giving themselves 'handjobs' for years, I doubt if any form of masturbation can be ‘gay’. This angle seems to get raised a lot on sexuality forums. Hands, mouth, whatever. Don't worry about it. I should note that eating pussy will always be my favourite thing to do in the world, but sucking my own cock is a hell of a lot of fun.
All of that said, here then are my experiences and tips. Good luck and good sucking!
I first heard of what I came to know as auto-fellatio some time in my early teens, perhaps from a film* or television show. I remember the vivid ‘light bulb’ moment that occurred and the intense desire to see if it was possible. That night in my bedroom, light off and door locked, I lay on my back and stretched my legs backwards over my face. I was easily able to kiss my foreskin, but only with a fair amount of cock-pulling and eventual neck straining. Strenuous activity was required for very little gain. I wished that my cock was a few inches longer, for it seemed impossible. So close and yet so far!
I expect that most males have tried at least once to lick their own cocks and given up at this early stage. I had friends who had attempted the deed and declared that the practice was ‘impossible’. However, the truth is that unless you have a very long cock, or are naturally flexible, time and patience and training are required in order to develop the strength and flexibility necessary to maneuver your body into position. With time and patience over the following weeks I noticed that my mouth got successively closer to my cock. My strength increased, my back and legs became more flexible, and one night I was able to lick the whole head of my own dick and experience what I can only describe as pure exhilaration.
What it feels like to self suck: a drug-like experience
Well, it feels incredible! As I said earlier, self-sucking is the closest thing I know to magic.
There are three aspects to my high.
1. 'Achieving the impossible'
The first is the exhilaration and sense of achievement from being able to suck my own cock. The brain releases feel-good chemicals to reward certain behaviours, and I am sure that this underlies the reinforcing nature of the practice.
2. Endorphins from exercise
The second aspect is the endorphin rush from all of the physical exertion. In the early days, working all those back and abdominal muscles had me sweating like a good gym workout. This aspect has gone over time, as I became fitter.
3. The pleasure of a good blowjob
The third (and most obvious) source of pleasure is from having a perfect blowjob. I am both giving and receiving head, and know exactly what feels good at any particular millisecond. This is the same for any form of masturbation, but it is a blowjob.
There are differences in the high from self-sucking.
The 'reward high' sometimes predominates, at other times it is the endorphin rush, but curiously the sexual experience is often not that important. The first time I was able to take my whole cock into my mouth and suck on the whole head I nearly passed out from the intense physical-sexual endorphin high, and I was nowhere near to coming. In fact, I rarely come when self-sucking, mostly because I experience orgasm-like highs without going that far. One time I nearly passed out from the endorphin rush and was in an opiate-like dreamy state for hours. I have never felt that good. I am still chasing that first amazing high.
Self-sucking is a secret pastime
I would love to have a partner give me head at the same time as I am self-sucking, for no other reason than it would be a cool experience, but the only people I have told are a girlfriend and a wife, and they were never interested in seeing me 'at work'. They thought that it was an interesting ability, but otherwise it is a private pastime. I cannot help but recall Ron Jeremy, possibly the world's most famous self-sucker, grimacing when being asked about it by young dudes in Porn Star: The Legend of Ron Jeremy. It's not something I can talk about - except in this context. I therefore keep my ability secret.
Is it 'gay' to self suck?
No. When I am self-sucking I tend to have hetero fantasies. Although I am giving myself head, I tend to focus on the experiences of having my cock sucked. I have nevertheless learned to enjoy the act of licking and sucking my cock and balls, and have no doubt that I would give amazing oral sex to another male if I was interested.
I used to feel ambivalent about tasting my own cum, but my girlfriends loved it, and one who was blowjob-obsessed said that it tastes best straight from the dick before it reacts with air, and she was right! I actually enjoy tasting myself now, my pre-cum in particular, and feel more comfortable with my body in general. At 'one' with my genitals, if you like.
My fascination with women who can self-lick
I know of one woman who could lick herself, a gymnast who as part of performances would assume positions damn near close to licking herself but with clothes on. She would grin at the audience from between her legs and everyone would stare and go quiet and blush (I know I did) and quite possibly all be thinking the same thing. One of her friends later told me that she did in fact self-lick and was as proud as hell of her talent. Who knows if she gave private shows to friends, but I have wondered. Oh, how I have wondered.
Something totally unexpected: my sexual history flashing before my eyes
In my early days of self-sucking, lying on my back, with my sexual mind-body connection developing, I started to experience vivid sexual memories. I discovered that if I happened to lick myself in a particular way, I might suddenly trigger a memory of a partner who gave me head that same way. For that moment I would be back where I was at the time when I had that experience. My penis has a tactile memory! This might sound good, and it was for the most part, like having a porno film running in my brain, but I would also recall forgotten memories of the relationship, and these could totally kill the mood. Weirder still, reliving and having to think about those memories was a form of therapy.
Women who do not like to give head are missing out
I could not even consider a relationship with a woman who did not like to give head. After all, I like to give head (to women and myself), so why would I bother with a person who did not? I have had partners who did, and who did not like to give oral sex, and in retrospect those that did were not only the best lovers but also the most open to life and experiences.
The main methods, and the differences in the 'giving' and 'receiving'
I can now take my whole cock and both of my balls into mouth with no hands involved, and lie or sit comfortably with my soft cock in my mouth, with my balls on my chin, just because I can and it feels good, but this level of ability developed over the following stages with days or weeks in between:
Kiss tip of cock (by pulling foreskin more than anything else)
Easily kiss tip and lick head
Lick along the side of my cock beyond the head
Suck half of cock into mouth
Suck more than half of cock into mouth
Take all of cock into mouth and lick balls
Take all of cock into mouth and easily lick balls
The 'lying on back' method
I started off using the ‘lie on back with legs over head’ approach, and it is probably the best method for the beginner. A pillow under the head can help, but the angle can strain the neck, and also result in a slight jaw dislocation that is not fun. If you are experiencing any kind of pain, stop. Regular practice is required over weeks or months to develop the necessary bodily strength and flexibility. You might find that you get to a certain stage of ability and can go no further, but then after a period of time can move to the ‘next level’.
I now find it more rewarding to sit in a comfortable chair and self-suck by leaning forward. This approach came later, as it is more difficult on the abdominal muscles, and it only works well if you have a lean stomach. I have found that this is the most 'satisfying' method as it feels like somebody else is giving me head, whereas the 'lying on back' approach is more of a 'giving head' experience. The other advantage is that I can do this while watching television. It's a great activity to do during the commercial breaks!
When I am warmed up and very hard and very turned on, I like to suck my cock while standing up. Ever walked around a room while sucking your own cock? I am not even going to try to describe that experience!
The leaner you are, the easier it will be. The flatter your stomach the closer your cock will be to your mouth. Even losing a couple of kilos can make a significant difference.
Some exercises that might help
Strong abdominal and back muscles will help, both with range of motion, and endurance. Try exercises that target the rectus abdominis and erector spinae.
Winter (or cold weather) is the natural enemy of the self-sucker, for obvious reasons. I find that my best self-sucking takes place in summer when the air is warm and there is no shrinkage. However, I enjoy self-sucking more on cold days as the exercise is warming.
A high calcium diet is a must for developing the strong bones necessary for advanced self-sucking. As I went through my ‘ability stages’ I craved and devoured milk and cheese. I was consuming 1500 – 2000 mg of calcium a day, drinking at least a litre of milk and plenty of cheese on toast. If you are not into dairy products consider a calcium supplement.
Surprising strength
An outcome of self-sucking is that my back and shoulder muscles are incredibly strong. I am not the fittest looking person but have genuinely surprised gym junkies with how much weight I can lift. I can only think that is a good thing.
Further thoughts
What else? I will add further thoughts as they come to mind. For now, happy licking!
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* Not from the film Clerks, though, with its talk of a self-sucker breaking his neck.
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