So its been along time since I even considered updating this blog.

I've lost people in this time, crossdressers who have begun attending therapy and thus stopped their night-time persuits and abandoned this site, women whos lives have changed also causing an abandonment of their open online livestyle.

Indeed I have met more interesting and genuine people since but filling the void left by my former friends is a difficult task and none have yet to really embrace me as their friend.

I have also come across not so nice people; individuals in the chat that have fallen for my figure - mistaken me to be female and lashed out when they discover this is not the case. I've begun screen capping these little occasions - all the men who has sworn at me or otherwise insulted me; almost bringing me to tears.

I have begin reading my first fiction with trangendered overtones; The Crow - The Lazarus Heart, I've only just begun reading it but I am aware there is a trans-women character and I hope that she is portrayed in a positive light. What I was unaware of was the rest of the book, about the serial killer that targets crossdressers, transvestites & the transgendered.

His initial introduction angered me, feeling the same old hatred for other peoples lack of understanding...until the character is shown to be quite nutters - and cutting 'gurls' into tiny peices to discover the robotic nanites causing the desire to crossdress in them.

In my personal life my desires are somewhat more understood; my friend whom I percieved as my biggest stumbling block trapped me in a car and asked me why I wanted to be a women. I explained the desire and got a suprising level of exceptance and was simply told I will not be judged by any of my friends - I doubt I shall be shopping for girly item in the future with them present but its nice to only have the family and work hurdles to tackle.

I know I should consider it charming I am mistaken for a girl in some of my pictures but all the small imprefections annoy me, a T-Girl once told me that hunting down all the issues is an impossible task but I do find myself hating my natural hair colour and the dark under skin shadow even shaved hair shows... requiring make-up to conceal my facial stubble.

My experiments with make-up I found a little disheartening after I got eyeshadow everywhere...wish my make-up artist friend would be online more often to advise me.

On photoshoots: I have a few more ideas for future photo sessions and when I've gathered the nessisary items I shall snap some shots... and begin phasing out of my older 'hairy' shots. While its nice to have a high number of galleries I do look at my earlier pics and they can be something of an embarassment.

Anyhow if anyone reads this little blog entry, I thank you for your patience and wish you a good day

- Zoe