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I get off on feminization. Where there is a feminine article, I am excited by the idea that the article has become feminine. It is a vicarious, selfconscious, emasculating, degrading, humiliating feminization.

Where I differ from I guess the "sissies" is that where they want to be feminized to the extent that they are still recognisably male and humiliation is more for its own sake. For me, humiliation and femininity are codependent, thus almost any recognisably male feature ruins the illusion. A big part of the humiliation is the recognition of ones femininity, or natural potential. I hate masculine bodies performing feminine activities or in feminine attire. The victim of feminization must be extremely passable. This is why in particular I cannot get off on feminized post-teens, or married or workplace fantasies; I simply cannot imagine them passing to a satisfyingt extent. 

My ideal porn is one without any genetic females in it at all, unless they are being rejected. There would always be one totally passable, petite & feminine legal crossdressed boy subjected to the most feminine of situations. We would always be aware that there is (or was) a "male" underneath this viel of feminity. He would be brutally manhandled by many massive ripped men, in the most homoerotic setups and would always orgasm in unison with them, solely through prostate stimulation. He would appear to orgasm like a genetic female would through vagina stimulation, involuntarily screaming and shuddering manically. It would be great if the erogenous area extended to the gouch and around the anus and especially close to the prostate. Despite gender, the more feminine the person the more erogenous they should be internally.

Perhaps the most feminine thing possible is an extreme exclusive attraction to men and masculinity. Not only that, the non-attraction to girls is not a matter of indifference, but a matter of being TOTALLY turned off and repulsed. Even if its a scene with 10 of the hottest guys in the world, the slightest female presence ruins it beyond repair. The sight or even idea of vagina makes you throw up. This is were my fetish is pretty ironic, as apart from this fetish i'm pretty much your average straight guy. It is not that I am gay, but it is the very IDEA of being so which is sexy. Although there was one instance in my early, or perhaps preteens that I later could only assume was related to my fetish. It was a wet dream that deeply shocked me for some time after. It invovled myself naked, being held upright into the air. Ripped naked men holding each of my delicate limbs as another one fucked me from behind. A fetish, I expect is capable of restructuring ones sexuality to the extent that it makes one susceptible to an investement in typically homosexual points of arousal. I still consider myself straight, although when totally crossdressed, there is nothing i'd like todo more than to suck a bodybuilder's massive cock and to have my skirt pulled up and fucked to the point of reaching orgasm via the prostate.

I read quite a bit of TG fiction aswell. I LOVE stories with slow changes, as it is the slowness of change that really draws out the extent of achieved femininity. For me, "instant" metamorphosis in almost any respect is unerotic as it skips a line of meaningful or potential feminization. In an instant femininity isn't achieved, it is an alien facet that produces tension (comparitively) in a less satisfying way, where the protagonist must come to terms with this feminine facet.

In some fiction, usually as it is drawing to an end, the protagonist becomes fully "female" in every respect. This becomes less erotic, as feminization is no longer occuring, only in forsight. That is why I am not a fan of protagonists undergoing a sex change (a penis remains a powerful symbol of the narrative).

No protagonist must totally want to be feminized. For an autogynephiliac especially, feminization must be masochistic!

I don't know if there is a specific event in my childhood that spawned this fetish. Perhaps something has been repressed or perhaps it is a relatively meaningless abstraction. I have a few relivant memories that at the time horrified me, but now gives me great erotic pleasure.

A great link on autogynephilia www.oocities.org/transsexual_analysis/transsexual5.html