It was almost time for me to go home, I
couldn't wait 4:30PM and i was so eager to leave...I kept watching the
clock... it it time yet.. I wonder if anyonw would notice if I left
ten minutes early? I shutdown my PC and locked up my office... I
couldn't rush out of there fast enough... my addiction, wait make that
addictions to sex and gambling have totally taken over my existance..
Adultworld was closing in at 5:45PM an I didnt have much time left. So i
walked as fast as one could walk without running.... an I paid my R30
to enter the booths at the bask of house.staright to the gloryholes
where I locked myself in. I didnt care about the disease,
I didnt care about my work, I didnt care about the lies I told of my
whereabouts. My mobile phones on silent and there I was using it as a
torch to see the cock I of some random stranger who I was about to
suck. He stuck his flaced penis through the dry semen covered
gloryhole...it smelt a bit fishy but I started to suck it anyway... I
hope I dont get tuberculosis or HIV...
oh go crabs... no that was the last thing on my mind... all I could
think of was sucking that big fat wet juicy cock as it was throbbing in
my mouth... I've sucked them all, indian, white, old, young, cut,
uncut, clean and not so clean... im a cock whore... the cock in my
mouth shot of a huge salty load after 30 minutes of me pleasuring him
orally. I think I just got infected I thought to myself as I swallowed
his load....I tried to spit most of it out... felt so dirty, is the
hiv in my mouth I wondered.... eew Oh god, please dont hate me... Im so
sorry,,,.... then I proceeded to jerk off in the passage way and shoot
my explosive cumload onto my suede shoes... I think they are ruined...
the cum stains on my denims and shirt dried on my way home... I
couldnt wait to get into the shower and as the water washed off my sin I
prayed that I havent caught anything.... but the water cant wash my
mind or my soul clean of my perverted actions... this day will stay
with me forever...
Im
sick.. so sick... I go there looking for someone to love me, yet I
never felt more unloved when I leave that place...something is wrong
with me
