There are days when i lay in my bed and think about my mom and the crazy things i was doing as she wilterd away with cancer i feel so guilty and bad because as she layed in bed dying i was with my step dad using his cock to make me feel better '' At the time it just felt right ''i could tell you that i did it for my step dad to make him feel better but i know thats bull shit i enjoyed it as much as he did ''You can also say he is the adult and shoud have had more controle ''I did not make it easy on my step dad ''It seemed like the more time we spent alone the more i changed into a little needy teasing slut and began wearing a hoody and panties around the house and some of my hoodies dont go down bellow the waist ''Its funny how i began to wear silky nighties when mom became too sick to get out of bed and my nights where spent alone with my step dad .

Things between me and my step dad seemed to change in stages there was the snuggling stage then the hand job stage then came the fingering and blowjob stage and the final one the sex stage '' i had one extra stage my secret one ''there where times when my dad would be at the hospital all night with mom so i was alone in the house ''one night i was alone and one of my dads friends droped by so i invited him we knew each other because he has been here many times before ''his name is mathew im not sure about his age but hes someware around 55 maybe a little older ''I was wearing my blue sweatshirt and red silky panties and nothing more '' I was realy missing my step dad and not because i needed to talk to him ''i sat with mathew for a few minutes on the couch i told him that dad was spending the night with mom so i was all alone and we decided he should stay the night and keep me company ,,

I asked him if he wanted to see my room and my stuff toy collection he said yes so i took him up to my room ''I sat down on my bed and he stood there as i showed him each of my stuff toys i could see him and he kept looking at something on the floor so i looked down and saw my satin pink panties i had them on that day but changed when i got home and left them on the floor i was a little embaressed because there was a stain in the crotch ''I bent over and picked my panties up and placed them on the bed and went back to showing him my toys .Mathews eyes where glued to my panties on the bed he couldent help himself he had to look at them so i picked them up and held them up and showed them to him i told him i had them on all day thats why there a little dirty ''I handed them to mathew and said ''you can touch them if you want ''he took them from me and began to feel them in his hands then i told him the panties i have on are silky as well then showed him  ''he was standing there in front of me and i was on my bed i layed back and showed him my panties then as i told him how silky they where i ran my hand along them over my crotch showing him how nice and silky they where he wasent sure if he should look at me or look away ''

I told him to stay where he was and i went into closet and got my pink satin nighie the one that went with the panties i had on ''my closet is big so i can change inside of it ''i walked out of the closet in my pink satin nighie the feeling of satin on my nipples makes them hard so when i walked out mathews eyes went right to my boobs ''.I stoped and did a spin and asked if he liked my nightie he said yes í sat down on my bed again and mathew still had my dirty panties in his hand ''My brain was going crazy i was nervouse and scared but i was also horny and excited ''I picked up one of my stuff toys and through it at mathew it hit him in the crotch so i giggled he picked it up and through it back at me hittinhg me in the head it wasent long before we where having a pillow fight in my room ''i jumped on his back and got him on the bed and when he ended up on his back i quickly got myself on top and pined his arms down .

As i looked down at him my hair going all the way to his face i looked at him and said ''what are you going to do now ''he pretended to try and move me and i held him down ''i say pretend because if he wanted to he could easley push me off ''i looked down at him and smiled and lowerd my ass onto his crotch and said ''oh my whats that ''mathew looked so shy ''I bent down and kissed him on the lips just a little one then said to him ''i want to play with it ''then i reached between my legs and touched his cock over his shorts then made my way into them and felt his cock it was so hard and sweaty ''i moved and got off of him then stood up i took his hand and told him to stand up and he did then i sat back down on my bed and pulled his shorts down ''i will be honest when i saw his cock for the first time sitting there i had second thoughts about going on with it i mean i though my step dads cock was big mathews cock was bigger the head on it was huge i sat there just looking at it then reached out with both hands and touched it  feeling his balls with one hand and the shaft with the other .

I stoped touching it and pulled his shorts down to the floor and he stept out of them as i leaned in and kissed the head of his cock then looked up at him and said ''its so big and hard''he looked at me and said'' its all for you ''i smiled and kissed it again before opening wide and taking his cock into my mouth as it went in i moved from the bed onto my knees and began licking his balls then taking as much of his cock into my mouth as i could and used my hand to rub the rest ''When i stoped and stood up he huged me and gave me a kiss then i jumped onto my bed and layed on my back then touched my pussy as he wached i put my hand into my panties and touched myself mathew began to slowly jerk himself off as he looked at me '' I held my panties to one side showing mathew my bald smooth pussy then used my fingers and began to finger myself ''I looked at mathew standing there and said ''lets see if it fits '''he grabed my feet and pulled me towards the end of the bed the got between my legs he held his cock in one hand and began to rub his big cock head along my pussy i felt it go a little in and jumped so he told me to relax ''

It was like my first time all over again i had to get some sex lube and put it on his cock lucky i had some from when my step dad took my virginity a few weeks before ''Even with the lube it hurt way more than my step dad ''mathew went slow feeding me his cock as i held my pillow tight over my face trying to hide my screams from him ''mathew was going to slow and i got mad at him because i just wanted him inside me so i sat up and grabed his cock it was slipery from the lube and smelled like cherrys ''i held his cock in my hand and told him to lay down on my bed as he moved i never let go of his cock then i got on top of him and reached under me and rubed his cock along my pussy then jentaly lowerd myself onto it at first it wouldent go in because i had removed the lube from his cock when i touched it so i had to put more on ''Mathew kept grabbing my hips and holding me tight keeping me from going to fast he kept telling me to go slow but i wanted him inside me so i told him to let go of my hips and get his cock into me and i lowerd myself onto his cock and holly fuck it was the best hurt i ever felt maybe not so much for mathew he got my nails dug into his chest '' 

There was alot of lube below the waist and our bodies where slipery his skin slid along mine as i rode his cock i looked down at him and rolled my eyes and smiled to let him know i was feeling amazing ''We switched and he got on top of me and began to fuck me then he picked me up and without removing his cock from my pussy he put me against the wall and as he held me up he continued to fuck me for a while i thought he was goig to make a hole in my wall using my body ''my picture on my wall fell ''mathew moved around the room keeping my little body in his arms holding me tight never taking his cock out of me we went from the bed to the wall then back to my bed and onto the floor i was like a doll to him ..

He held me tight as he sat down on the edge of my bed i wraped my legs around his back his cock was deep inside me and everything stoped i wiggled my ass feeling his cock inside me then kissed him ''he looked at me then i felt hisd hands grip my hips and he lifted me up and his cock came out and went beteween our bodies i felt his cock press onto my stomach his cock head was just below my boobs then i began to move my body rubbing his cock between us then i felt his cock twitch and when i moved back a little and looked down his cock went off and he blew his load right into my face his cum went all over my chest and face ''I have only ever seen one other man blow his load and thats my step dad and i thought he had big loads but ''holly fuck '' mathew was crazy it kept cumming out and that first shot was insane it hit my face hard i was lucky to get my eyes closed in time ''

Mathew spent the night and we got up around 5am we got dressed and mathew made a coffee as we sat together in the kitchen and mathew got ready to go to work my phone went off and it was my step dad sending me a text he said he was staying at the hotel for another night to be with mom and wasent comming home ''it wasent long before mathew was calling his work to say he wasent going in and then i got him to call the school and pretend to be my dad and tell them i was sick and wouldent be in class today ''we went back up to my room and got undressed and into bed ''we held each other for a while kissing and touching each other then fucked our brains out before taking a nap then fucked again in the shower had lunch then fucked in the kitchen ..

Mathew pics me up from school sometimes and we go park someware quiet and i suck his cock or he takes me to the motel where no one askes questions and we fuck for a few hours then he takes me home ''its hard to stay away from my step dad after being with mathew i tell my step dad that i had cheer practice and needed a shower try to wash myself as fast as i can because my step dad always comes in and joins me in the shower i try to get him to cum using my mouth because i dont want him fucking me and finding theres cum inside me from some other guy '...