My first year of high school was hard it seemed like everything was going wrong with my body and all i wanted to do was hide in my room over the summer i went on the birth controle pill not because there was any hope of me having sex at anytime soon first i had to get a boy to notice me first and that was a job in itself ''Anyways''i took the pill to controle the pimples that made my face look like a pizza ''then there was the crazy out of controle body ''oh my god ''it was like everything was out of controle my boobs where no where to be found i had given up on them i thought i would have to live with just a pair of nipples on two gulf balls because thats what they looked like ''Then there was the insane out of total controle emotional side of me it seemed like my head was going to explode all the time ''And to be honest even now 3 years later no much has changed when it comes to my emotions and feelings .      It seemed like everything made me horny as hell bumping into a door handle made me pussy tingle with happyness then i found the joy of the shower head and what it does when you put it on the right setting and hold it upwards between your legs .

I think grade 9 was the biggest test of your life it was like walking into a battle zone ''everyone is judging everyone ''I had my friends Kevin and sandra so i didnt have to do it alone and that was good ''There are things that are easy to talk about then there are things not so easy to tell you about and i want to tell you about everything even the stuff i keep deep inside me ''                                        Through all the crazyness and insanity there was my two vavorit people in the world and they came in the form of a 56 and 57 year old man my friend Sandras dad and kevins dad they both helped me through everything crazy in my life .

My relationship with kevins dad was new and just getting started we where spending time together when i went over to see kevin it was very inocent then just talking and little kisses and his tickling fetish he had with me ''At night i began to video chat with kevins dad i would hide under my blanket with my phone with the volume as low as i could it was just enough to hear him ''I would show him my nightie that i had on before we began talking''Its funny because at first when we began i couldent figure out why he had a hard time holding the phone steady it was like he was in a earth quake all the time 'then one night i got curiouse and asked him what was going on and he showed me ''it seemed that every time we video chated he was jerking off at the same time ''then he showed what he was doing that was the first time i wached him blow his load ''i remember the feeliing i got as i wached the cum shoot out of his hard cock and i heard his say ''thats for you my little girl''it realy felt like it was mine and i loved it ''

I felt like i had three dads and each one had a different purpus there was my dad the one at home that made the rules then there was sandras dad he was my teacher the man that showed me what sex was about the reason going to the cottage was so much fun ''then came kevins dad he made me feel new things it was very different with him ''Sandras dad was just about playing having my body used like a naughty rag doll it was about being on that sandy beach late at night sucking his cock while every one was sleeping then having my head forced into that old leather couch in his man cave back home as he used me pussy as his own personal fuck toy        Kevins dad was very different hes more of a snuggler and loves his kisses ''he has a big panty fetish his favorit is silk or satin and full bottom he loves it when the panty covers the full ass so he can rub his cock on them''When things began with kevins dad he was very nervous about my age and for the first few weeks he wouldent touch or even see my pussy it was all about my boobs and kissing then alot of panty play ''

He likes to sit as i rub my satin coverd ass on his cock and when he ready to blow his load he slapes my ass and i get up and turn around and finish his off with my hand ''OH YES''there has been a few times when he went off to soon and made a mess of my panties but thats why i always bring a spare with me ''He also loves it when i touch myself as i stand in front of him pressing my panties into my pussy as he slowly jerks off then i take them off and press them into his face before stuffing them into his mouth and as he sits there with my panties in his mouth i suck his cock ''then sometimes he just likes it when i take off my panties and rub his cock with them ''Hes funny because he tells the crotch of my panties smell like cotton candy .

When i think about my relationship with older men it wasent because i was lonly at least not socialy  i had my friends for that but when your friends are as nerdy as you and all they think of is games and star trek sex takes a back seat for them it just wasent as important to them as it was for me ''I loved being with my friends and hangging out but i also needed intamacy i wanted to be touched and looked at like i was sexy ..This may sound crazy to some of you ''but even now its the same as it was two years ago when i feel ugly and just overwelmed by everything when i feel like im going to explode inside all i have to do is spend some time with sandras dad or kevins dad ''There is something so amazing about being alone with a older man and being looked at like hes going to fuck me good ''

Its like when everything is going wrong and totaly crazy in my life and my head is spinning out of controle all i have to do is spend some time alone with one of my daddys and everything is ok''If i could put it into words ''its like popping a over filled balloon ''when im totally messed up inside it feels like im going crazy ''then i feel kevins dads cock going into my mouth or sandras dads cock going in its like this amazing feeling of ''fuck the world''i have a hard cock to pleasure ;just feeling the big head of there cocks touching my lips makes me forget about my problems and its all about pleasing that beutifull hard cock feeling it going in the salty sweat fillling my mouth ''there is nothing like the taste of a mans sweat on his cock'' and i mean nothing '' Sandras dad works out alot and jogs as well and he wears these tight spandex shorts and i tell you he looks so good in them ''I was out one morning just going for a walk with the dog when i met up with sandras dad he was out for his jog ''it was hot out and he was sweatting like crazy and all i could think of was how sweaty he was inside those tight shorts ''

It wasent long before we had walked down to the pathway and into the forest area ''there is this small place in the forest where a old building used to be from long ago and it gave us a place to hide and have some time to ourselves ''i tied the dog to a tree  and waisted no time getting my hands on his crotch i rubed his cock as it sat inside those tight spandex shorts then pulled them down and out came his hard sweaty cock i did not touch it in fear that my hand would take off some of that lovely sweat so i got on my knees and stuck out my tongue as far as i could and licked his cock head like it was the best lolly pop in the world then i went all in and slid his cock into my mouth the salty sweat filled my mouth like a explotion it felt like the top of my head was going to pop off ''Its moment like that when everything just feels right and i realize that i do have everything in my life that i need and want .

There is something about sucking a mans cock that makes me forget about everything when i have a cock in my mouth its all about doing my best to please that sexy hard cock to bring it to that exciting moment when it gives me its prize 'There are times when i can spend a hour under the covers just enjoying a cock and all i want is to be left alone and just let me have my time in my own little world ''I love the sex part as well dont get me wrong i love having my tight pussy filled with cock feeling it being stretched by a thick cock that burnning feeling that lets me know im being fucked then having to walk like i just rode a horse for the past hour thats what i love about older men they fuck like im the last girl on the planet ..

But its that imtamit feeling when im sucking there cock that i truly love the feeling of being in my own little world and its just me and his cock ''the way he shivers when i do that one thing that drives him over the edge then when i know what it is i will keep doing it just to drive him insane .For kevins dad its putting my finger into his ass as i suck his cock it drives him totaly crazy its not easy because i have long nails so i have to be carefull ''when its sandras dad he loves it when i suck his balls and slowly stroke his cock untill he cant take it anymore and he explodes ..

That whats so exciting about having older men to play with no two are the same each one likes something different and its up to me to finde that one thing that puts them over the edge  .I love being the center of attention and being touched and explored there is something so excitting about seeing a older mans eyes as he touches my body the way his hands move along my skin as his eyes fallow his hand its as if hes in some far away place where his fantacies have come true .

I dont think there is anything wrong with wanting to feel sexy and wanted by a man even if he is 40 or 50 years older than me i dont see the problem with spending time snuggled up under a worm blanket on a cold winter night with a man old enough to be my father all i know is it feel right and so amazing ''It takes a mature man to know just where and how to touch my body and make me forget about the world for a while ''I think its so cute when sandras dad is all snuggled up with me on the couch and his hands are wandering around under the covers and as he spends time in his little world he calls me sandra his daugters name by mistake and i know just what hes thinking about ''and i do the right thing and call him daddy ''I dont blame him for wanting to be with his daughter i mean shes very pretty and petite like me so if he likes me the way he does then he must like sandra the same way and thats ok with me ''

There is so much i still need to explore and try in the world of sex im just getting strarted but i do know one thing and that is as i make my way along my sexual trip and try new things its going to be with a older man someone that can show me different ways of feeling good ''Over the past year it has been the love of older men that showed me i can be proud of who i am and the way i look and not hide behinde a wall because i dont like myself ''they showed me that being naked in front of someone is something beutifull and fun and i have no reason to be ashamed of my body ''I am so gratefull for having older men in my life and how they changed the way i looked at myself they made it possable for me to look into a mirror without feeling bad about the way i looked ''it took the hands of a older man undressing me in front of a mirror and touching me all over as he told me i was very beutifull to show me i was and even though he may not realise it he changed this shy and timmid little girl he showed her that it was allright to show her body and be very proud of the way she looked and i will forever be gratefull for that...

And believe me i show him my graditude every time i have his cock in my mouth ..I want every mature man that reads this to know you are not old you are mature and there is a big difference being old is just a number but maturity is experience and its that experience young girls like myself need in there lives ''I remember having trouble with my math and one night i was over with kevins dad and i sat on his lap at the kitchen tabel and as he showed me how to do it he jentaly touched my pussy under my skirt and every time i got the answer right he put his thick finger a little deeper into me ''my need to feel his finger inside me became so much i began to think better and i was abel to learn something that was hard for me and when i was finished i was so happy and we fucked on the same chair ''its amazing things like that i love about the mature men in my life they just seem to know what to do ..

So you see its not just about sex its so much more its having someone there that i can go to when i feel down ''LIttle girls have there daddys and yes i have been and still am very close to my real dad we talk and i sit on his lap but i t wasent untill i had sex with sandras dad and found out what sex felt like did sitting on my dads lap make me think about his cock and how it would feel'' and i tell you this ''the feeling of having sex with my dad is very different than the feeling when im with another older man ''its hard to put into words ''but if i could explane the feeling its like being on a roller coaster for the first time your scared and very nervouse but once you get over the first drop and feel the butterflies in your stomach its amazing and thats how i feel now when im alone with my dad ''

the other night was the closest i ever came to touching my dads cock ''i was sitting on his lap and we where talking about school i was in my white skirt and my dad had his hand on my knee i could feel myself getting excited inside and all i could think of was i wanted him to get hard for me and let me feel his cock pressed onto my ass and give me a reason to ask him about it just one reason is all i needed .

I dont know if it will ever happen between me and my dad its very hard to say there is a big part of me that wants to but maybe its not a good idea all i know is if it does happen its going to be amazing ''if it happens i promise you will be the first to know about it ''    I want to thank the older men in my life for helping me find my way through a very confusing time you helped this confused little girl and i love you for that ''so please if the time comes in your life where you have the chance to guide someone and help them feel better about themselves take that chance it will be rewording in so many ways and if your lucky she will love the taste of your cock as much as i love it ....

I love hearing from all the mature men on here its amazing just to know your out there and i would like to thank you ahead of time for every message you send me ........