i am gender-fluid, so i tend to shift to whatever gender someone wants me to be although in my fetishes and personality, i favor being feminine over male. Since most family and people i rely on know me as male, in public i generally am referred to as he or him, in play or around fellow members of the LGBTQ community, she or her. But i am not concerned about pronouns as i will be whatever You want me to be.

i am in a wheelchair, and this is the main reason i rarely date or dress feminine or have many erotic pictures. i have a very rare genetic disability called Spinal Muscular Atrophy type 2. Spinal muscular atrophy type 2 is an inherited genetic disorder that causes very slow progressive muscle weakness and wasting due to a loss of specialized nerve cells in the spinal cord. i cannot drive, stand, walk, transfer, bath, potty nor dress myself without assistance. Caregivers are very hard to find, expensive, and are only covered if one does not work. The fact that i am completely reliant on others forces me to hide my fetishes and sexuality from attendants and family.

i am pan-sexual or omni-sexual. i derive my sexual pleasure primarily from the approval, praise or pleasure of someone else. i was always the teacher's pet type who would try to prove value through obedience and trying hard to win approval. i tend to favor famine bodies but love cocks and am especially fond of other t-girls. i dislike my own cock however and like extreme cbt, enforced chastity and castration play. Age, gender, race don't matter if You know how to play with my fantasies.

i am an artist, author, inventor. i have had gallery shows and i love inventing bdsm toys which i would love to test out. i just got a 3d printer which is my new favorite toy as i can design and print my inventions. Creativity is sexy to me...and my disability forces one to be creative.

Mentally i will admit, there is something very wrong with me. i am someone who will watch a horror show and get excited imagining myself as the victim. i came into bdsm from reading Dolcett comics and wanting to be one of the female victims. Am trying to stay safe and sane but i must admit i often fail at the sane part and the desire to be hurt and punished overwhelms my common sense. Any Dom/Domme would have to manage these self destructive impulses.

i am not an ATM. More then once i have fallen for someone who has used me. Am not sure i am empathic, but if i even sense for a moment you are scamming me for money, i will totally ghost you. To get my attendant care, i literally can not own more than $2,000 in total assets and not allowed to marry... so i am by law forced into poverty. i don't have money to give You and i have had my own generosity taken advantage so often, i will not abuse yours. i will pay my own way and even buy toys to use on me...but am not supporting you. i understand everyone is struggling financially...i am too. Does not matter how sad Your story is, i just can't help You. As an in person slave, if come up with something i can do with my talents or skills to help financially, that is fine but i have only barely enough funds to be self sufficient. i will not pay to 'register', an application fee, nor pay for a Mistress or Master. i view myself as applying for an open position similar to a job interview. i am applying for the open position of being a slave to You. As an applicant for an open position , i am not going to pay You just to be interviewed. i am sure that there are jobs that do this , but i have no interest in working for them. Should You choose to hire me as Your slave, i am willing to pay for my own uniforms , food, even most travel expenses if i accept the position You offer. If You , as my boss, find ways to use my talents while employed to earn profits, so long as You care for me as Your employee , that is a part of the job. But keep in mind i am not hiring You. That would imply i was the boss.

Am open to most any kinks including filming, photo and safe exhibitionism, but i have no tolerance for blackmail. By the way, if looking at my list of fetish interest...i sortof maxed out. The A fetishes are missing like asphyxiation and ass play as i started to delete all of them when that orange clown was elected but it was taking too long. By the way...if are maga...move on....am not interested in you .

To find out my age...Your going to have to torture me...and then i will lie. Am over 21 and less than 60...is all i will say on that.

Hard Limits

i love making new friends no matter where in the world You live, but will only submit in person in real life. No long distance slavery...been there done that.