As i lay here in my bed with my laptop in my room i read my comments and messages some are amazing and some not so mutch but eather eay i love to read them .When i left home and my mom it seemed like a good idea i mean things where realy bad at home after my dad left us with nothing my mom was a stay home mother so when dad left there was no money comming in and it wasent long before everything went to shit .my mom looked to men for help and they had no problem helping for a price and that was usualy a sleepless night havig to hear some guy fucking my mom in the next room .I hated getting up for school and seeing the men some of them thought i was fare game and being with my mom meant they could touch me as well ''I remember my mother getting mad at me because i would yell at one of her dates because he thought he could help himself to my body .I cant remember how many of my moms boyfriends asked me if i sucked cock like my mom ''.

When i left home i truly thought it was the right thing to do and at the time i didnt think about where i was going i just knew i had to get out of that house .I tell you ''even though i had walked these streets many time before on my way to school they seemed different now scary and very lonely ''anger can make you do things that you regret later and when i realized that being alone on the street was scary as hell i regreted my decision to leave home .It was around 2am and my legs where so tierd from walking ''thats one thing about being on the streets i kept walking because i was scared to stop i figured that as long as i keep moving i was safe i must have seen the same pot hole on the road a hundred times that night .I watched the sun come up on saturday morning and felt reliefe that the night was over its amazing how you never knew how day light made you feel untill you have spent the night alone on the streets .I met Summer that saturday morning it was around 5am and she was walking towards me just in front of her apartment i think she could tell i was in trouble and had no where to go because she offered me something to eat and a worm bed to sleep in .

Her place wasent fancy it was a two bedroom apartment on the top floor of a three story building ''the building was old and i remember seeing it many times growing up i never thought i would end up living in it ''i remember when summer introduced me to my room for the first time there was this old mattress on a bed frame and nothing els the walls where this ugly yellow and the light on the cieling was so dusty it gave off this dim light ..Little did i know i was going to loose my virginity on that old mattress with some old guy i never met before''That night summer had a few men over for sex i had no idea yet that she was a hooker and the men there where paying cusomers but i soon found out the hard way ''

I remember sitting next to one of the men he was about 50 years old maybe older and as we sat together i could see summer with the other guy and he was the same age around 50 then just like nothing she began to suck his cock right there in front of me and the other guy needless to say i was shocked and had no idea what to say or do .Then i found out the guy i was sitting with knew just what to do he put his arm around me and opend his pants and said ''there you go its your turn sweety ''and he grabed my head and forced me down to his waiting cock and just like that i tasted a mans cock for the first time .

As i sucked on his cock Summer took her date into her room but left the door open i could hear them fucking as i struggled to suck his cock i had no idea what i was doing so i just let him guid my head up and down his hard cock ''It wasent long before sucking his cock wasent enough and he wanted more and i was being taken by my hand and found myself in the room being undressed he kept telling me i was a pretty girl as he touched me all over ''Its very hard for me to talk about what hapend next''my first time wasent with a boyfriend or gave me a good memory my first time was with a old man that payed for my body and there was nothing romantic about feeling his fingers inside my panties as he fingerd my pussy and kissed my lips and with every kiss he became more forcefull it wasent long before i was feeling the pain of his cock being forced into me without any care ''I just closed my eyes and hoped it would end soon ''For the next hour he fucked me in different possitions making me change his condom when it was full then they changed and the guy fucking summer came into my room and he went into summers room he didnt even change his condom he used the same one that he fucked summer with on me because he hadent cum in it yet ''

Over and over again they switched roomes taking turnes on me and summer one guy came into my room with the condom still on his cock full of cum he took it off then told me to open my mouth when i said no he got mad and slaped  me on my face and told me to open my mouth again then he grabed my cheeks and made me open my mouth then tiped the condom into my mouth and made me eat his cum then made me kleen his cock and when he was finished he placed the condom on my chest then called me a dirty little slut ..

After that i wanted to stay in the shower forever washing the feeling of there hands off of me i sat in the shower crying for a long time that night i thought about my father and blamed him for what just hapend and if he hadent left me and mom this wouldent have hapend i hated my dad more than ever now''

Hating  my dad made it  easier for me to have someone to blame for what i was doing and where i was there was many night when all i thought of was how i hated my father as some old guy fucked me then made me take off his condom so he could cum in my face .I had so much hate for my father and blamed him for eveything that was wrong in my life every cock i sucked for money and every old guys cock that fucked my ass made me hate my dad more ...