Days 1-3!

if I have any longer posts they'll be their own blog post but other than that I'm going to group them together.

This is day one! I’m starting my month or more long challenger to try and become the a whore! I have a lot of ideas, and things I want to do! I’m going to post or have posted my goals, and fetishes so all of you can know what’s going on. 

So I have a humiliation kink and it can be kind of a viscous cycle, I get humiliated, being humiliated make me so horny, and then I get embarrassed that I’m so turned on by that and it gets more and more intense. I’ve been trying to do small things when I leave the house like wearing tighter clothes, having a visible camel toe, touching myself whenever I can, and wearing toys outside. I was able to stretch out my asshole a lot today, I started with a medium sized plug, then larger and larger dildos. I really want to be able to take a fist in the next month. I was able to put my lush in my asshole and then went on the lovense app and got my ass fucked by strangers. Some of my new friends created a private room so they could dom me there and I could share pics! I absolutely love that I’ve been able to share pics there, I needed to show the strangers how much my pussy was drooling all over the place. I love using too much lube too and being covered in grool and lube to be extra messy and sloppy. I think I’m going to order a dildo that looks like a first but isn’t a full sized one for motivation. 

I have also found that putting thc oils or lotions all over my fat clit and holes that the pepper burns and then the mint part hits so it’s burning and freezing at the same for a while and it hurts so good. I’m consider putting some of the oil in the bath and just having it all over me. 

And now for day two. I didn’t feel super great today, but I can’t let that stop me. I was able to stretch my ass a little bit and I’m going to do more. I’m going to get four fingers in before I’m allowed to go to bed. It’s 12:33 now, so I guess this is actually day three, I’ll write at the bottom of this entry how long it took. 

I used a ton of the lotion and oil all over my holes and clit and ass today. Layering the products makes it a ton more intense, same with all of the dabs I’ve been taking. I’m thinking about completely covering my clit in it and then covering my clit with some sort of peppers almost like I’m breading chicken or something. It’s so embarrassing that that’s something I want to do, and I want nto take pictures to show to strangers. Sometimes I wonder how many strangers have seen, saved and jerked off to pictures of my sloppy holes. It’s crazy and also makes me feel good that people save my pics to cum to. 

Day three has been busy so far, i haven’t had any time alone to do anything. Im going to use the restroom so i can put more of the lotion on my clit and asshole so i can feel the cold burn around people, which is so gross that i want 🥵 I would do more but these are people i actually know and not strangers. I need to make up for this soon and go out and show off for strangers. If I want strange men to grope me, what should I wear? I think I’m going to dress up in what you suggest and take kind of a slut walk. I know you won’t see this for a while, so I’m going to do the same thing another time in your outfit suggestions. I’ll add on here later when I have time to stretch my ass.