abuse and violence where a big part of life and somethig i had to endure on a daily bases sometimes it was a spanking gon to far or getting a slap in the face because i wasent sucking his cock the way he wanted then there where the nights when i was hit so hard the bruises took weeks to go away''there where alot of guys that acted inocent and sweet until they knew no one was watching then they became abusive and for most of them they felt is was ok because i was a hooker and there paying for the right to hit me .Some of the worst men where the ones that found out there wives cheated on them and they wanted revenge they needed to take out there anger on someone and i found myself on the reciving end of that anger .

For me it was the lonliness i hated the most i could be in bed being fucked by some guy and all i feel is hallow and very lonely i mean this guy has no idea what my name is or where i came from he just wants to get off and go on his merry way ''my regulars knew me as Tracy and never knew my real name ''Jessica ''I have wonderd what sex is like with someone i wanted to be with someone i have feelings for not some stranger or customer i wonder if i will ever enjoy making love to a man or will it just feel the same .

there is this one older guy that became one of my regulars and he hated his wife of over 30 yeaers he would call her every name in the book and tell me about how she is a bitch and stupid and a fat slob he would tell me this as he fucked me and when he was finished he would always thank me for listening ''I have pretended and played the part of a wife a daughter and a cousin even someones sister it all was what the cusomer wanted so i learned how to act and become what they wanted .

The strangest ones where the daddys the men looking to make there fantasy about there daughters come true ''There was this one guy he was in his late 50s and had two daughtrs and was happely married he loved his family but his thoughts towards his daughters made him crazy he tld me that seeing his two girls in the house in there nighties and tight shorts drove him insane with sexual thoughts that a father shouldent have ''The first time we met he took me to a hotel and we sat there for about a hour as he showed me pics on his phone of his family telling me all about his two girls that where my age ;;he kept telling me i had there eyes and hair color ''he told me that he hated himself for getting hard when he looked at his girls and spent many nights in the basement alone with there dirty panties jerking off to pics of them then he would cry because he felt so murch shame in himself .

I was sitting on the edge of the bed when he took out his cock and showed it to me his hands where trembling as he stood there in front of me he reached down and took my hand then placed it on his hard cock his body shiverd as i touched it he said he was confused because he didnt know witch daughter to call me he wanted them both and as his cock went into my mouth i looked up at him and he said i had his daughters eyes and i looked more like his younger girl so he called me her name and when he did i called him daddy ''He began to bring his daughters panties that he found in the dirty laundry and i would put them on he would spend over 30 minutes just licking the panties and my pussy then he would rub his hard cock on them before finaly fucking me and cumming hard inside me .sex was so intense with him his fantacy about his two daughters was so strong his need to release his insane need to touch and feel his own girls drove him over the top when he was with me 'The second time we where together he was on top of me and was fucking me hard calling me his daughters name then he slowed down and began to slowly fuck me holding me tight his face right next to mine i had my arms around him then i whisperd into his ear ''i love you daddy ''and just as i said it i felt him blow his load into me ''After as we sat there he told me when i said that to him it was the most amazing feeling he has ever had and i made it so real for him ..

I had this one father that made a mask out of a picture of his daughter and made me wear it as he fucked me ít was this paper mask with a string and he would put it on me there was a hole where the mouth was so he could fuck my mouth ..i was surprised by how many fathers had fantacys about there daughters ''there where some where i thought i was there therapist as they told me about there feelings towards there daughters and how it gets harder to hide it as they grow up ''they tell me how seeing there little girls blossom into young girls and teens made it almost inpossable to hide there excitement in there pants ''I had one dad bring his daughters swimsuit it was this one piece swimmimg suit it was red and shiny he told me when he saw his daughter in it for the first time he sat in a chair by the pool watching her and actualy blew his load in his shorts with just a few touches of his crotch .

Sex was very intence with him as he fucked me in that swimsuit he never took it off the entire night i just held it to one side as he fucked me ...