So in my last entry I told you how I learned I could suck my own cock. I could get the head in, and maybe a little more with some effort. I had mixed feeling about cumming in my mouth, as that seemed "gay" and I wasn't gay. Did cumming in my mouth mean I was gay? What about tasting or swallowing my own cum? Very confusing thoughts for a 16 year old.

Those confusing thoughts didn't stop me from doing it, though. And I had girlfriends and loved fooling around with them, and jerking off to big titted women and women in general. But I kept returning to shemales, and those hot ads for porn in the backs of magazines, and stories about men with huge cocks. Eventually I decided it didn't matter - it was all hot as fuck, and made my cock hard and when I came it felt great.

In time I went to college and lived in another state, for the first time with roommates. Mostly that was good, there were cute girls in the dorm and I dated a couple and fooled around with a couple. Having roommates seriously cut into my masturbation time, though, and I didn't like that! There were almost never any times when someone wasn't in the room, as there were four of us. I still found time late at night in my bed, but it wasn't nearly as good as being alone and carefree. If you're wondering - No, I never did anything with any of my roommates, nor did I even want to. I wasn't, and have never really been, attracted to men sexually. Cocks, yes, but not the rest of a man.

I found that the best place to jerk off was in the bathroom. It was the only room in our dorm that was private. I hid a few magazines up in the drop ceiling and would beat off in the shower. Being young like that I would get hard in seconds, and could cum as quickly as I wanted. The girls I fooled around with were fun, and mostly pretty inexperienced, and all had roommates, so it was incredibly frustrating trying to be alone. Most of the time I lived in complete sexual frustration!

To be continued...