So, here we are. Another year has come and gone... or is that cum and gone? Anyway, it's over. That means it's time for New Years resolutions (aka stuff I'll never do or only do for a short period of time before I give up).

Like most people, I use the New Year as a symbolic fresh start. It's a time to make changes and to set goals, and it's the latter that I'm writing about today. In this case it's sexual goals. Boxes that I want to check (or have stuffed in my case) in 2026. What are those goals you ask? You did ask, right? Probably not. But here they are anyway.

I want to...

1.) Cross dress - Over the last year or two I've felt a strong urge to explore my feminine side. I don't want to live as a woman full-time, but I do want to feel what it's like to dress up in a sexy, slutty outfit with my make-up done and a nice, high quality wig to complete the look. I don't plan on diving off the deep end at the beginning. I want to start small. Maybe wear a pair of panties. Then graduate to a tight dress or a short skirt. Ultimately I hope that this acts as a gateway for me to fullfill my biggest fantasy which is to... 

2.) Suck a Black Cock - This one has been simmering for a long, long time. If it were as easy as yelling "I want to suck a big, black dick!", that's what I'd do. But that would probably only draw some confused or angry looks. Even in the age of the internet, fidning this kind of hookup is difficult. There's safety, of course, but also where? Sure there are apps and clubs and the like, but navigating that is dicey terrain and findning what I'm looking for is like trying to find a needle in a haystack. I also have no desire to do it as a White Male. That's where the cross dressing comes in.

I'm not a bad looking guy. Nothing special, but I do have some success with Women (my tiny, useless White dicklett aside). But I don't want to be a middle aged White dude in that scenario. I want to be a bimbo slut, teetering along in a pair of spiked heels and wearing a realy slutty outfit when I slurp on that fat BBC. And by the way, sucking a Big Black Dick is only the start. I want to graduate to getting my boi pussy pounded raw. I want to be used any way he sees fit. His pleasure will be my pleasure.

This one is going to be extremely difficult. I'm going to be smart. There are too many dangers out there to just abandon caution for the chance at a momentary thrill. Where I grew up, you had to be street smart or you might get hurt, so I'm not your typical naive, sheltered suburbanite. I'm also going to be very picky. 

I've got to vet him without invading his privacy too much. This would involve more of a meet and greet in public (no, not with me in heels and a skirt). Exchaning full names and data isn't neccessary, as that could bring a whole host of problems and dangers. But I would like to be mutally tested for STD's for safety's sake and so that we can both relax a little bit. Not be stupid, but at least removing some of the fear of the risk anyone takes with something like this. 

There's also got to be an attraction. Simply being a Black male isn't enough. I'm not asking for a ten, as I'm certainly not (though we'll see how I look all dolled up like a gal), but I do have standards, and I suspect that he would as well. And yes, he's got to have a Big Black Cock. Like legit big. That's the fantasy. It's not a MBC, it's a BBC. I wanna have my lips stretched when I try and take that thing on.

3.) I want to visit a Domme - This one will be much easier by comparison. There are several professional Dommes in my area; many highly rated. The two I'm circling right now offer all or most of the things that I'm seeking. Their rates are reasonable all things considered. Certainly worth it to explore this particular fantasy. It's going to take some courage to reach out and still more to let down my defenses and let them do their worst to me, but I feel that soon after the New Year I'm going to make this one finally happen.

Well, if you've read this far I thank you, and I wish you a very happy New Year. Stay horny.