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Coming Out of My Shell - Finally
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I am an introvert in everyday life, but for many years I have had a deep fascination with exhibitionism. People who know me would probably describe me as easily embarrassed and quite uncomfortable being the center of attention, yet for some reason, I constantly fantasize about being nude in front of large audiences. It's not for attention or to feel "empowered"; for me, this is about feeling vulnerable and embarrassed as part of my sexual experience. The thought of appearing totally nude and masturbating myself to orgasm while being watched by anonymous strangers represents a complete surrender of power and privacy. Considering my overall personality, I'm surprised that my interest in exhibitionism exists at all. But my curiosity doesn't stop with fantasies and daydreams. I have always felt a compulsion to know how it actually feels to do it for real.
I’ve only had a few opportunities to experiment with exhibitionism in my regular life, but it has been enough to make me want to try more and go farther. I was aware that the internet could be an accessible place to experiment, an opportunity to go not just "farther", but MUCH farther. I held-off for a long time, though, because part of me was still very hesitant. For one thing, the internet can be an impersonal, intimidating, and risky place to share even mundane information about yourself, let alone appear nude. Also, I knew very well that to experience the kind of exposure I craved, I couldn't just settle for posting anonymous dick pics or photos with my face blurred...I would have to show EVERYTHING, including my face, or it wouldn’t count. On top of that, I have some self-confidence issues about my weight, and I certainly don't have a "porn-star"-size cock. Why on earth would I want to publicly show everything about myself that embarrasses me?? So as you can probably imagine, I felt a lot of inner turmoil - a very private person who struggles with a compulsion to publicly surrender all privacy and anonymity in a way that could end up changing my life as well as being, quite honestly, extremely embarrassing.
To see how it felt to bare myself in front of a camera and what I would look like "on screen", I made some very revealing, explicit videos and still images of myself. It was really exciting to know the camera was recording me in such vulnerable moments, and I found that not only did being recorded make me easily aroused, it was so exciting that I had to be careful to not orgasm too quickly! These videos and images were supposed to be for only myself to watch in private and fantasize about, but I found myself so turned-on thinking about showing them publicly that I literally could not stop myself...though I was filled with doubt and voices in my head were screaming "don't do it!", I made more content, as sexual and explicit as I could, and uploaded them to this site. My heart was racing and my hands were literally shaking as I clicked the option to make them publicly viewable by anyone...it was both scary and exciting at the same time.
So now my body, my sexual responsiveness, and my flaws are all publicly exposed in explicit detail on a worldwide stage. Because I clearly show my face, my personal identity is now permanently and undeniably tied to my videos and images. It's what the exhibitionist in me always wanted. Despite being filled by worry and embarrassment (sometimes to the point of headaches and nausea), I am at the same time intoxicated by this experience. The vulnerability aspect is especially exhilarating - ANYONE can now see what I look like naked, how long and thick my cock is, that I am circumcised, how I touch myself, how much semen I squirt during orgasm. Yet I know literally nothing about you.
I know I don't have an athletic body and a big cock, but this is NOT about me believing that people who see me will think I'm hot. It is about me actually coming to terms with an extremely important yet uncomfortable truth about my sexuality: I crave feeling the extreme vulnerability and embarrassment of being publicly exposed by sharing the most private side of my body and my sexual responsiveness to anyone who cares to look, regardless of the consequences to my personal life.
Since all of my content is publicly accessible, I understand that I might be seen by someone who knows me. If you do happen to know me, I assume you are cool with seeing other people nude since you are looking at a web site like this in the first place - but, I sincerely apologize if seeing someone you actually know is uncomfortable for you. On the flip side, I also understand that some people may find it very amusing or scandalous to see an acquaintence, friend, or relative this way, and feel compelled to let "everyone" know about my sexual content. I certainly cannot expect you to keep this a secret or protect my anonymity - obviously you are free to tell anyone and share links to my content with anyone else you wish, particularly others who know me. BUT, if you want to do that, I do ask that you be respectful of other people and first consider if certain individuals might be offended by my content and/or nudity in general before forwarding to "everyone". In other words, mention it to them carefully first, and if they seem interested or intrigued, then send all the links. I might suggest something like "OMG, you'll never guess who I found naked pictures of on the web - you know him!" and then see how they respond.
Sorry for over sharing. But it is good to get some things off my chest. Thanks for your indulgence.
ALSO - Because my kink is to be completely stripped of ALL control over my own sexual privacy and anonymity, my content is released without limitation to the public domain so you may download it, copy it, and post it elsewhere without any need for my consent. Feel free to use it for memes, AI art, photoshop, and any other purpose you wish. ALSO, please feel free to leave explicit comments, critiques, and criticisms of my content, as raw and demeaning as you want, because I would love to see people publicly discussing intimate details of my body and my sexuality in VERY objectifying, embarrassing terms. Thank you!!
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Posted on : Dec 20, 2025
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Commented on Dec 21, 2025
Hey beerandfam, thank you so much for taking time to read this blog entry, and for checking out my content. I really appreciate the kind words. It is nice to know that there are some people out there who understand the desire to feel exposed and vulnerable. I must add that, now that I am doing this for real, it feels SO good but at the same time, SO much more uncomfortable than I expected. Conflicting emotions for sure, but maybe that is part of the thrill.
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Commented on Dec 20, 2025
Hi!
I love your honesty and frankly think you have an excellent body. I have loved exhibitionism since I was a boy and it really turns me on to have strangers watch me masturbate. I wish I knew you and you lived close by. We could share some fun experiences. (I think)
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Commented on Dec 20, 2025
Here is a great example of control being taken away from me - a web site that lifted a gallery I have on another site and reposted it to their own. I'm not sure if the "whale" part was a transalation error, of if its a derogatory description, but either way, I'm good. I have no idea when this got posted, but it is exciting because I have no way to take it down - it's not my post.
https://www.homepornjpg.com/ru/nudes-of-keith.shtml
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