I am disgusting wanker primarly due to my shyness and my submissivness towards women.

I crave sexual intercrourse (usage?) by a woman, by women or a group. 

I dream of a life as a female sex slave.

But then I realize, that I am nothing but a worthless being. And I beg anyone: if there is any chance of being useful as object of degradation please contact me.
To become the slave of slave, or a sissy would increase my value tremendously. 

I do life in southern Germany, between Stuttgart, Würzburg, Nuremberg, Ingolstadt, Munich, Augsburg, Ulm. 

I am yet straight, but why should anyone care?