The one thing i love about this site is being abel to express myself and tell you about things i could never talk about with anyone face to face it give me a chance to open up about what is going on in my life .I do most of my righting as i lay in my bed with my laptop because its the time i think about everything thats going on and my room is like my special place where i can be alone and just think . I wanted to be as honest as i could about my crazy sex life and the crazy older men in it .

If i was to be honest about my relationship with Dustan my dads best friend i would have to say its good in some ways but not in other ways i mean i like Dustan ;oh sure hes older than my dad by 3 years but hes fun and makes me feel good about myself .When i think back to a few years ago i would sit and talk to dustan when my dad wasent around and he always listen to me and have good advise ;for 7 years i grew up knowing him as my dads friend accross the street or the man that hung around the garage with my daddy .I remember the two of them standing there in the garage with a beer in there hands they always said there working on the car but never did anything to it they just lifted the hood and looked at it as they drank beer .I was the little girl that would go into the garage to get my bike and i would always ask /what are you doing /and the answer was always the same /working on the car /as i got a little older i realised they where just hangging out .

I never thought for a second that one day i would end up on my knees with Dustans cock in my mouth Its amazing how life can change in ways you never thought of .But then i never thought my body was going to change the way it did its amazing how you go from not caring about sex and boys to becomming this crazy horny girl ;I think for me it began when i hit my teens i began to see men like dustan and one or two of my teachers very differently i began to tell myself things like /i would let him touch me /and things like that and i would feel different inside myself when i thought about things like that .For me i began to look at older men because they seemed to notice me more than the boys my age and i get it i wasent the pretty girl or the best built ;when the other girls where growing boobs i stayed flat and my face had so mutch pimples on it some called me pizza face .

Older men didnt seem to care about stupid things like that they looked at me very different and i remember sitting with Dustan one day out on the driveway i was so shy about my lookes but for some reason Dustan made me feel good about myself and i remember that day so well because he told me i was beutifull and the other kids are just jelouse and that i had a pretty smile as well .My attetude towards Dustan changed that day he wasent just my dads friend anymore he was my friend as well and i began to think about him more and in a different way . 

I remember the first night i was in my bed and i was thinking about Dustan and i found myself touching my pussy it made me feel so excited inside thinking about him as i rubed myself down there i think that was the night i truly found out what it felt like to get horny about a man it felt so good as i touched myself and thought of Dustan .It was so different after that when i talked to him i began to look at his crotch more and picture what his cock must look like and what his srong hands would feel like on my body i began to look for any reason to touch him or just get close to him ;one day i got him to put my hair into a ponytail in the garage /oh my god/his hands felt amazing as he touched my neck and took hold of my hair i got goosbumps all over me and squeesed my legs together tightly because i felt wierd between my legs .I could have sat  there all day  with dustan with him playing with my hair .

I spent the next few years trying to get close to him every chance i could it was my secret love and my first real crush so you can only amagin when i began to blossom and grow boobs and my face finaly cleard up i got taller i know it took time but i remember my first summer with boobs and that special day wore a bikini top and was abel to fill it then got that amazing look from Dustan //WOW did he make me feel sexy /in a way no man ever did the look in his eyes as he watched me walk by him  his eyes just looking at my chest the way my black bikini fit tightly around each boob and my nipples where hard from being in the pool .then his eyes droped down to my ass and my bikini bottoms where wet and went between my ass cheeks so i did the finger thing and pulled them out as i walked by then gave him a big smile .You might think something like that is just a small thing but for me it changed my life ;seeing a man look at me that way made me look at myself very differently i wasent that ugly duck anymore i had boobs and my face was cleared up and someone noticed me //i felt amazing inside after that /

I talked alot more to dustan after that day and i found that our time together was different we where more mature now he would talk to me like i was a adult not a child and i coud see the special look in his eyes as he looked at me i often wanted to say //my face is up here /when i caught him looking at my chest but i never did i gues i liked it .. 

Well my mom is calling me down for breakfast so i better go i will finish this later i promise ....