It's been a while since I last wrote here. I'd like to record the things I've been through these past few months. I'm not referring to certain real-life events that were very demanding but have nothing to do with what I want to mention.

I think it's no secret that I've been in a relationship for almost a year and a half. In fact, we're wives now. It's also no secret that I'm submissive, so my wife took on the role of my Mistress. Many people ask me how a relationship like this works in real life. Well, the answer isn't easy since fantasies sometimes overlap with concrete facts. So I'd like to give a brief description of my life as a submissive wife.

  

We both have jobs; she works full-time and I only work part-time, which gives me time to take care of household chores. I do the shopping, clean the house, do the laundry, prepare the meals... in short, I'm practically the maid.

Our Dom/sub relationship takes place 100% in our home. Our friends, acquaintances, and family members are completely unaware of this dynamic. I have two symbols of my wife's ownership: a tattoo (which can't normally be seen) and a collar (actually two, a symbolic one that I wear outside the house and a real one that I wear inside).

I've been tied up, gagged, spanked, fucked in all my holes, licked vaginas, eaten from a bowl on the floor, been locked in closets for hours, been a nurse, a student, a French maid, a stripper, an odalisque, etc. And i enjoyed each second of it!

  

The truth is, I love my wife and I think she's the best thing that's ever happened to me. And on top of that, she loves me too!

Then one day I confessed to her that I had an account here and that I talked to different people and even played role-playing games. All innocent! But she, in her role as Mistress, gave me a punishment: I had to have relationships with men and fulfill all their fantasies. I was supposed to be a "cum-thirsty whore" (her words, not mine). And I was. From the end of April to the end of May. And I lost myself.

I don't know what happened to me, but I sort of became addicted to performing acts I would never do in real life, but that I longed to do in fantasy. But that wasn't me. It was the persona I built to relate to men. The truth is, the persona was eating away at the real me. I spoke to my Mistress, and we agreed to stop just a couple of days before my "punishment" was over.

I spent a couple of months detoxing from the virtual Alex, from that whore who would do anything a man told her to do. Now I'm back, the real Alex, not the virtual one. I'd like to believe I'm more focused, more settled, perhaps wiser.

I've had to explain this to the men, who, I must say, understood me perfectly (unlike some women who stopped talking to me in May because they felt betrayed that I, as a lesbian, had decided to humiliate myself in front of men).

My idea for this site is the original one: a forum where I can talk about topics that interest me (basically everything related to submission) in order to learn from other girls' experiences. And of course, make friends and talk about everything.

Yes, I'm back. Maybe wiser, maybe not. Only time will tell!