There are people that just dont understand why a young girl would date or want to be with a older man ;I cant speak for everyone i can only speak for myself and tell you my reasons i think every girl has there own reasons for being with someone as old as there dads or even there grandads .you see for me i was never the popular girl or the girl that was in the cool girl group i was just Erica the girl that never got asked to the dance or got asked out i was never noticed ..i spent most of my time at home with my dad or just being alone .The boys in school only looked at the pretty girls ;you know; the cheer leaders and the bubble heads all looks and no brains guys seem to like that as for me i never got a second look .It was lonly at times and i did have my nerdy friends to talk to at lunch time .at least when i was with them i felt like the cute one .

I was told a few times i needed to wear makeup because i had a sexy body at first i had no idea what they meant by that but i got it after; i needed to make my face as nice as my body .in school everything has to be perfect you hair and clothes even the way you walk and if its not they will let you know about it .i always felt like i was being judged by my looks and i know its only natural for people to do that .

If things wernt bad enough i was a late bloomer and every year after summer hollidays i would go back to school and see the other girls and how they grew boobs and see them showing them off as for me i kept my flat chest and as the other girls began to wear tight sweaters and shirts i wore baggy clothes to hide my body .I would see the boys looking at the girls and i would have given anything for just one guy to look at my chest and take a second look like the way they look at the other girls .I think thats why when my dads friend Dustan looked at me the way he did that first time it affected me the way it did  ;i mean ;there he was looking at me and taking that second look that i have been wishing for ;then the 3rd look and even a 4th look no one has ever looked at me like that .When i went to bed that night i layed there thinking about Dustan and the way he looked at me the way his eyes moved along my body and he seemed frozen in place as his eyes moved .I felt so sexy as i walked by him i pretended not to notice him looking and tryed hard to keep myself from tripping over my own feet ..its hard to walk normal when you know someone is looking at you you become self aware of yourself and think your walking wrong and you try to walk normal but you end up looking stupid ..

Ya i layed in bed thinking of Dustan and for the first time he wasent just my dads friend of the old guy that lives across the street he is now the guy that likes me and that changed my world and life its so crazy to think that something as simple as a look can change you but it did i stoped wearing baggy clothes to hide my body and began to wear tight tops and short skirts and i began to tease dustan with my new look i began to act more like the girls in school when dustan was around giving him smiles and tilting my head to one side then touching my hair i was doing things without even knowing it and i did it all for my need to have him look at me to see his eyes look at my new boobs and my legs in my short skirt .There where many times when i would dress in my new mini skirt and go down stairs just to get dustans attention and see his reaction then go back to my room and play with myself thinking of him .

Its so crazy when i think of it ;one day you look at someone one way then you see that same person in a very different way ;I mean its amazing to think that i once thought of dustan as just the old guy that hung around the house with my dad in the garage i never though of him as sexy or someone i wanted to be with sexualy i realy never thought of him that way .But when he gave me that look and took the second look that was something i wanted and truly needed i was the girl that got a second look and i felt so amazing .

Dustan was no longer the old guy he became my fantasy guy and i wanted him and after teasing him and spending over 4 monthes fantasizing about him and all the nights laying in bed wishing he was with me and all the times i came close to kissing him but chickend out it finaly happend and we got together .It was so amazing after so many times trying to get close to him and sitting with him for hours trying to get the courage to just touch him and let him know he could touch me finaly the night came when we both just went for it and wow we kissed on the lips ;;i know for dustan it was different he kissed women before but for me it was my first real kiss and all i hoped for was i did not fuck it up and dustan liked it .

It just happend one night we where sitting together just talking like we did before we where over at his house at the time and he llet me take sips from his beer i had on my white mini skirt and bikini top and i was loving the way his eyes where looking at my boobs .Maybe i had one to many sips of beer  and my courage level was high but i just rememmber telling dustan i wanted to kiss him i think he thought i wanted to kiss his cheek because when i leaned in and kissed him on the lips he looked so shocked but after i gave him a big smile and said it felt good he was more relaxed and the second kiss was better because he kissed me back then each kiss became longer and his hand went onto my face then my hair and we began to make out .

At first i did not understand but when my hand touched his crotch by mistake he jumped and stoped then told me i should go home i was so upset and thought i did something wrong but after he told me he got scared and didnt want to do something i would regret later .We made out a few time after that and never went any farther then dustan began to put his hands up my skirt and explored my ass and then my pussy there was alot of petting between us and in time i began to feel his cock and jerk him off as he fingerd me there was alot of kissing between us and sharing food as well .Dustan has this thing he loves it when we share candy and i put it into my mouth then as i kiss him i give him the candy then the next kiss he gives it back i think its sexy too we do it with different foods .and after a while i began to put things like whip cream and chery sauce onto his cock then lick it off and he would put it onto my pussy and eat it off as well .there where night we would go for hours just licking and eating food from our bodies ;I remember laying on the kitchen tabel and dustan would cover my body in whipping cream then lick it all off even out of my ass he always made sure he never missed a spot .I can truly say that dustan knows my body better than anyone .

One night  dustan was laying on his back and i put whipping cream on his cock and went down on him eating and sucking and at one point he lifted his legs up and some cream went between his ass cheeks and in the excitement and i was in the moment i did what he does to me i licked his ass ,i know it sounds disscusting and i thought so too but when my tongue touched his ass hole it was nothing like i though it would be i felt kinky and dirty and just knowing where i was made me want more i felt like such a dirty girl and i loved it .

Dustan makes me feel good about myself he never tells me my hair is messy or my clothes dont match he dosent care about things like that he just lookes at me for who i am and loves the way i feel in his arms he tells me how he loves my little body and how amazing it feels to have a young girl sucking his cock he tells me i am sexy and beutifull every time i see him and i can tell he means it by the way he touches me and the way his cock gets so hard when hes near me .Dustan tells me that he can not controle his cock when hes with me even just sitting with me or going for a walk his cock is hard and ready to fuck me ..I look at older men in a very different way now before i looked at them as just that older men and even creepy in ways but now i see them as sexual partners and boyfriends i look at them all the time and rate them in my head and tell  myself i would fuck him  and i dont think of his age at all i dont care anymore i look at men as old as 70 if there cute and have a nice body i think there fare game and i would fuck them .

I love being on my knees for dustan seeing him standing there looking down at me as i make love to his cock with my mouth the way he grabes my hair and pulles me in then tell me how much he loves me by feeding me his cum i love the look in his face as he waches me swallow his cum .I know it may sound stupid and silly to some ;but to me when a man cums in my mouth i feel so proud of myself and i love the challange of swallowing it all without it comming back out  i feel so close to him when i have his cock in my mouth it seemes so intamit and sexy .

I love dustan but i am not sure if i am in love with him i mean i love what he does for me and the way he feels when we have sex but i still feel uncomfortable being seen holding his hand in public i feel like peope will judge me for being with him and wonder why a gilr my age would see in a man his age i feel bad about thinking that way but i cant help myself .