Where should i start; my name is Mark; and i am Veronicas husband and i found out 2 weeks ago that my wife has been cheating on me in the most insane way possable and when she couldent tell me everything because she was so upset she introduced me to her page on here and told me to read her blogs and thats what i did so here i am i thaught i would right one myself to let every one know how i feel about it all ..Well lets see for starters i had my suspitions the entire time the way she dressed and spent so much time out with my friend Andy the way she began to come home late and sleep in the spare room and jump into the shower late at night when she sneeked in i would pretend to be sleeping and i would hear her come in then the shower come on i had a big idea what was going on .

I wanted to ask her about it but i knew she waould lie so why bother right ;Veronica wasent the best at hiding her crimes i would finde her panties in the laundery basket stained and in some cases still wet from being down inside the clothes its funny how when you find something like that i couldent help but look at it then take a smell of them first a short smell then a longer one just to see if its her wetness or a juys cum i couldent help myself but in the end i know what cum smells like and thats what was on her panties .

Its crazy because you think you know how your going to react when you finde out that your wife is fucking around but its nothing like the way you think i thaught thats it its all over my marage is over and its time for a divorce and thats what i told myself as i held her wet panties in my hand .I also knew that i took her for granted and over the past few years i became that husband that did not think about her needs sexualy and yes i did let her go out with my friend Andy i just wasent thinking and i just forgot about being a good husband .

I blame myself as much as i blame her and the night she told me what was going on i just remember going numb inside i mean like i said i knew inside myself what she was doing but nothing like what was realy going on my god i never thaught my wife would ever do things like that and as she sat there in her red satin robe i just looked at her listening to her tell me about her and andy but when she told me there was others and even group sex my brain exploded i ust kept picturing her in my head being touched and fucking different guys and there was a part of me that wanted to get up and just walk out right there but there was also the part of me that blamed myself and i looked at her sitting there and for some reason i was very sexualy excited i mean my cock was as hard as rock and i just wanted to grab her and open that robe and feel my wifes body and make love to her . 

I know she only told me because of the people that where using her and she was fucking some guys to keep them quiet and she was sick of being used that way i just think that at least i know now the truth and its all out there in the open oh yes it hurts and i am mad lke crazy but you have all seen my wife in the pics here on her page and you all know how beutifull and sexy she truly is and i just couldent or cant leave that no way .The night she told me i was very surprised that i wanted to make love to her i think its because i wanted to prove to her that i can fuck her like a real man and be like the guys shes been having sex with and i also found out that angery sex is amazing; oh yes  ;i did things to her that night that even surprised me and with all the thaughts in my head of her with other guys and even knowing she was with someone as resently as that night made me last long oh yes it was so hard to cum i just kept fucking her i think i wanted to hurt her by the way i was slamming my cock into her cunt and the way i just fucked her ass i wanted her to feel my anger as i fucked her asshole ..

My cock is not the biggest by far and i know that so after a few minutes of trying to make her screem from paunding her ass i knew it wasent going to hapen and i calmed down but ya angery sex is wiled and very amazing ..I love my wife and i cant just leave her i think its because if i did she will end up with Andy and that hurts more to me because then i will feel like i lost and just gave up and thats not going to hapen shes mine and thats it and if i have to share her so be it .

After the shock sets in and things settled between us and a week went by and the sex began to get borring again i did something crazy and i never thought i would do but there i was in bed with my wife and i told her she could continue to date Andy if she wanted to i mean i could see her cell phone going off when andy called her every day and she kept it secret i could tell by her face that she wanted to see him so i just let her go i was a little surprised by her fast reaction and the next day she was out with him again oh yes she couldent wait to see him even that night i heard her on the phone telling him the good news the excitement on her voice was so insane and i couldent help but feel small and stupid for telling her but i figured she would end up in bed with him anyways so i might as well just let her go .. 

There is a big difference from sitting at home alone and thinking that your wife i with another guy to knowing shes getting fucked buy another guy and i tell you it can drive you insane with jelousy i mean i went insane sitting there on the couch thinking about what andy was going to my wife at that moment i kept telling myself she was sucking his cock and he had his cock in her cunt and ass i spent the night walking around the house hating myself for letting her go i was so fucken confused about everything and half of me wanted her to come home so i could fuck her and the other half was calling her a slut and bitch and many other things i just had no idea what to think anymore .and at one point i wanted to just tell her it was over but when she finaly walked through that front door i could tell she had sex with him it was on her face she couldent look me in the eyes just like before and i looked at her standing there and walked over to her i locked the door then asked if she had a good time she said it was ok i aked her if they had sex and when she looked down at the floor and did not say anything i knew she did and just like that i pulled out my cock and made her suck it and i will tell you this when i looked down at her and knew that she was just with him and they had sex together my cock was so hard it was in pain and the thought of her sucking his cock just moments ago and now my cock is in her mouth made me crazy inside i couldent believe the feelings it gave me ..Even the sex was insane when i thought about her and him together as i fucked her and the thought of him inside her as i slid into her made me insane with jelousy..

I began to fuck every hole just because i knew he was in there just moments ago  i told myself that it was ok to let her fuck other guys as long as the last cock inside her was mine before she went to sleep i know it sounds stupid but i needed something to help myself cope with everything going on with her and if i could think of something that made me believe this was good then i did it .

I truly do love my wife and thats what keeps me with her and if my sex with her means i have to compete with other men well i can live with that for now i mean there are some advantages to it like i began to shower with her after she has been with another guy its fun she tells me about her night and what they did together and the way he fucked her as i wash her body in the shower..the other night we where sitting in the shower and i was washing her chest as she told me about the way he fucked her mouth and came down her throat and how big his cock was and she had a hard time breathing as he fucked her mouth ,The way my heart races when she tells me things like that is crazy sometimes i think im going to have a heart attak .I fuck her after and get my cock into every hole then i can sleep knowing i was the last one inside her at the end of the day and that makes me happy .....