As i read your messages i realize that most of you ask me why i love older men and some ask how old would i go ;;first let me explane that over the years i have met and seen some perverts  not just men but women as well as i went from home to home each one had there differences and each one left a memory in my minde that i will remember for the rest of my life .                                I think for me it was the feeling of being over powerd by someone much older than me .when i was younger i wanted so bed to trust someone and have that sence of family .When i went to school my friends would talk about there homes and mom and dads i would feel jelouse that they had that .                                                                                                                                                    My first time with a man was strange to say the least you see i ended up at this house with a couple they where in there mid 60s and there 2 kides had grown up and left the house i was there for a few monthes and became close to mark he would help me with my home work and buy me icecream .

It was about 4 weeks into my stay and i was alone with mark in the house it was my first time alone with him so i felt nervouse ;me and mark where sitting at the kitchen tabel playing cards mark had a beer and i had a pop i had on my nightie and paul was in shorts and a sweater .Mark told me i could try his beer if i wanted to and pushed it over to me so i did i had tryed it before but told mark it was my first time he wached me take a sip then said to have another he got up and got me a glass and put some of his beer into it and gave it to me and as he did he told me it was our little secret i said ok ..Its funny how giving a young girl alcohol is ok when someone older is doing the giving and just wants you to relax and after i finished my first glass of beer i realy was relaxed .

Mark showed me how to play poker and soon we began to bet we used skittles candy as money it was fun for a while but soon found out that i had eaten all my candy and had nothing to bet with so i asked mark if he could give me some of his he said he would but it would cost me a kiss maybe it was the beer but i got up and went over to him and as he sat there i leaned in and kissed him right on the lips so he pushed two skittles over to my side of the tabel i looked at him and said /thats all//he told me i had to pay for more i smiled at him and kissed him again and he gave me two more .I stood there between his legs as he sat on the chair and kissed him as he pushed candy over to my side of the tabel and soon it had nothing to do with cards i just wanted all his skittles .

Its crazy how the same person that you where looking at across the tabel a moment ago that is old enough to be my dad or even my grand dad now seemed not so old and i was enjoying the feeling of his lips on mine .It began with little kisses and by the 10th skittle the kisses where long and romantic his big hand on my face and before long we had forgoten about cards and it was all about the kissing and even though i had almost no experience kissing he told me i was amazing at it .I must have stood there between his legs for a long time just kissing and feeling his tongue in my mouth .

Mark stoped kissing me and told me to step back so he could take a look at me and i did i wached him look me over from head to feet telling me i was very beutifull and sexy then i felt his hand on my leg and it made its way up then he slowly lifted my nightie so he could see my panties ;my panties where pink and on the back was a smily face and as i stood there i felt marks finger on my ass making the smily face first he did the eyes then his finger went along the smily mouth i giggled as he did it the second time then the the third time then he leaned in and i felt his nose touch my ass and i could hear him taking a long smell of my butt then he said i smelled amazing down there .

What happend next was when i began to see older men in a very different way you see mark got up and as he stood there in his baggy shorts i could see his big buldge his hard cock was pointing out he just stood there and as he looked down at his cock all he said was //look what you did //i just looked at it in shock oh my god it was big and so hard i had no idea what to do so i just stood there looking at him .Mark took my hand and took me upstairs and into the room i was in and he sat down on the bed then told me to sit with him and we began to kiss again .I found it crazy how as things began to go further between us his the thought of his age was nothing anymore and not a problem all i knew os it felt good and i was having fun and at the time had no idea how far it was going to go .

Mark piced up a pair of my panties off the floor and took a long smell of them then told me again how good i smelled he handed me my panties then told me to place them on his face and i did then he told me to put them into his mouth and when he opend his mouth thats what i did he sat there looking at me with my panties in his mouth then lened in and kissed me on the lips then asked me to pull them out so i did then he kissed me again .Mark told me that he was about to make a mess in his shorts because he was so excited and his cock was so hard for me he told me that it had been so long sence he had felt the soft skin of a young girl and that i was just to pretty and sexy so he needed to take off his shorts so he didnt get them wet so he stood up and pulled down his shorts i sat there on the edge of the bed in total shock as i looked at his cock the way it poped up as i got cought on his shorts then when it got free it poped up and stood there right in front of my face at that time if there was any thought of his age left in my head it became nothing more than a memory i mean oh yes he was still old enough to be my dad but from where i was sitting that did not matter oh my god i never thouht they made cocks that big and the way it just stood there so hard i felt so proud of myself that i made him that hard and big ..

Mark told me it was ok for me to touch his cock and took my hand placing it onto his cock i could feel his heart beat as i grabed it and gave it a squeas then ran my hand along it feeling the soft skin i was amazed on how something so hard could be so soft i realy liked the head of it and how it felt even softer than the rest Mark let me explore his cock for a few minutes as he stood there in front of me then jentaly pushed me back onto the bed then pulled me towards him placing his cock between my legs as he bent over and kissed me i felt so small as his body came down for each kiss he was carefull not to crush me i just felt little as i layed there on my back with mark over me his cock pressing up onto my panty coverd pussy . 

He began to rub his cock on my crotch grabbing my legs he rubed the entire length of his cock along my panties i thought he was going to rip my panties he was rubbing so haard my lower half of my little body was comming off the bed with each time he forced his cock onto my crotch he had a firm grip on my hips as he pushed his cock hard onto me ..Every time i turned my head away he ould place his hand on my face and move my head so i was looking at him he only stoped when he wanted to smell my pussy he would go down and take a smell of my crotch then back up to rub again .

Mark Stoped and told me he didnt want to make a mess of my pretty panties and as i looked at his face i could feel my panties being pulled down i looked down just in time to see him remove them from my feet then as he looked at my bare bald pussy he took a long smell of them he then placed my panties on my chest and bent over me i felt his cock touch my pussy and i shiverd under him i felt even smaller now as he presseed his cock onto my bare pussy he could see i was scared so he told me in my ear //Dont worry im not going to put it inside you i dont want to hurt you i just want to rub it on you // then he stood up again and pulled me close and began to rub his cock onto my pussy as he smelled my panties i just layed there looking at him smelling the crotch of my little pink panties ..His cock head would get caught and i thpught it would go in and i wuld jump and mark would say sorry then keep going he would use his fingers to open my pussy so he could look at it then go back to rubbing his cock again .

I have to admit there was a part of me that wanted him to put his cock inside me the feeling i was having for him was very new to me and that older man was making me feel so many new feelings i just wanted to keep feeling them all night .Mark rubed for a while then he lifted my nightie up over my little boobs and just like that as i looked down i wached as his cum came out of the little hole on top of his cock it hit my chest and even my face but i did not look away i couldent i was so amazed by the streem of cum as it came out and went all over me .You have to understand i was young and had never seen that and to me it was a time to be proud that i made him do that .I looked at him as he stroked his cock getting the last bit of cum out and onto me then gave his cock one last  shake then stood there looking at me as i layed there coverd in his cum .

Mark reached down and sat me up telling me he was sorry for making a mess on me i said it was ok but he insisted on kleening me so he piced me up and took me to the shower he took off my nightie and placed me into the shower then got in with me and began to wash my entire body even my hair then i washed his cock for him before we left the bathroom and went back into the room mark grabed the towel i had around me and pulled it off then began to kiss me all over and before to long made another mess on me and after about 3 showers we finaly layed down together on the bed and i ran my nails along his chest as we layed there without talking .

That was my first time with a older man and i was very surprised by how i didnt think about his age once we became sexual i found him sexy and i loved the way he made me feel so helpless and small and how he was in full controle of my body .The way he was so close to fucking me but did not made me so horny and excited even the scared feeling of his big hard cock hurting me was exciting there was so mant feeling in me at one time i had no idea what to think or do so i just let mark take full controle of me and when you do that its so exciting not knowing whats going to happen to you ..

So thats why i love older men now because when i am with a older man i get those feelings again i feel like that little scared girl feeling and seeing her first older mans cock and i love bringing back those emotions and the scared feelings i had .                            For me i love giving my body to a mature man and just letting him have his fun with me i love being picked up and carried into a bed room or shower and being forced to suck cock and fucked without concent ,Only a older man can make me feel like i want to feel just looking at someone that is old enough to be my grand dad or dad as they undress me and feel my body drives me crazy inside i love the look that older men give me when they see my bald pussy or the look on there faces as i look up at them as i slowly slide there hard cock into my mouth there is nothing like that look on a older mans face as they look at a young teen girl placing there cock into there mouth its so amazing i feel special inside knowing they love every second with me ..

So ya i do love older men and the amazing feelings they give me and what they can do to me so i gues when i say age doesent matter to me its not all that true because it does matter i ;ove my men older like over 40 and up i have had men in there late 70s and loved it but when it comes to boys my age im not intersted  oh sure i have tryed but theres nothing there the feelings ar not the same not even close so age matters to me i want older men in my life and bed not some teen boy that has no idea how to make love and give me what i need like a good spanking when i need one oh yes only a man can do that then grab my hair and force me to suck his cock .

One last thing before i go i tryed to get a guy my age once to force me to suck his cock and it was a joke it just wasent the same not even close i laughed and walked out on him for me there something about being with that older man and knowing he can over power me anytime he wants and knowing that when he grabes my hair and face fuckes me its real and thats the exciting part i love ......