We've discovered last week that we were on the same path, but separately.

Au is battling some mental and physical health problems, I guess, and it has an effect on our life as a couple. She gained some weight, got a little depressed, slept less, and we put the blame on her age, which was not the kindest thing to say.

As a consequence, she wasn't tempted by making love or having a tender moment together. It is disturbing because we've always been full of energy in and out of the bedroom, and I never pictured us as couch-decorating housewives. Furthermore, I was having the same amount of fantasies as ever and nobody to live them with.

I began to masturbate a lot more than usual, everywhere and at every opportunity, but I did not let au know about it, because I didn't want her to be sad or frustrated, or whatever. What embarrassed me was that I had a lot of fun and wonderful orgasms without my lover. I even wondered if something was wrong with me, as dumb as it sounds, but you don't shake society's norms this easily.

Then, last week, Au caught me with my hands full, two fingers inside me and another on my clitoris. She caught me but did not say anything, this naughty woman : she attended the show behind the door, watched me come, then entered the room. That, she told me later. I had a very pleasurable time but I felt guilty that she did not take advantage of it a bit more. I love her so much !

She sat next to me, took me in her arms, we cuddled and talked a bit. I could feel that she was excited by what she had seen.

"Do you want me to go behind the door while you do the same ? Or can I stay and watch you ?"

She looked at me with her "lusty eyes" and I knew that she was back to me right that moment.

-em♥