"I don't know if that would be a good idea, honey," I told Jax.
"Just seeing you like this is hard enough," he told me. "I don't think I'm up to watching you screwing these guys for twenty-four hours. But listen, this is twice as long for the same money, Harry. Maybe it shouldn't be twice as much, but it should be more."
"Okay, I'll give you fifteen. Do we have a deal?" asked Harry.
Jax replied, "I don't really want to do it, but you're right that Darlene doesn't seem to mind, and I really need the extra money."
"Same payment plan as before?" Harry replied.
Harry returned to the bedroom to grab the $7,500. I returned to the sofa and some boob sucking and clit massaging. Jax looked away until Harry returned with the seventy-five Franklins.
"Bye, Darlene," were Jax's parting words.
"Bye, honey," I replied. I hoped he wasn't too mad at me. I guess I didn't care as much as I should have. I really wanted to have some more orgasms, like what I had experienced over the last twelve hours. And these guys seemed to be the right type to provide another few hours of climax after climax. I thought the last twelve hours was the best twelve hours of my young life; the next twenty-four could be a lot less intense and still be great. I felt a little bad because I didn't believe I would ever share my experiences with Jax, but I was having such a great time that I didn't worry about it.
"We're going to do some play acting," Harry announced. The only difference from before was that I had to put my clothes on, act out Harry's scenario, take my clothes off, and fuck my brains out. His scenarios were sort of cute and fairly involved for home video shooting. They included the young wife being an amateur nude model who is fooled into fucking not only her fellow model, but also her husband's boss; the young wife who has to fuck loan sharks to pay off her husband's debts; and the innocent young wife who is looking for her husband at a party at a friend of her husband's and ends up being fucked by her husband's friends. We spent a couple of hours on each one.
Around 10 am with only a few hours left of my obligation, we decided to go down to the restaurant for breakfast. My guys and I sat at a corner table. We chatted about what a good time we were having. Then I saw Jax sitting alone at the counter. I told Harry I wanted to at least say Hi to my hubby. When he agreed, I walked over to the counter.
"Hey, Jax!" I greeted him.
"Hello, Darry," he replied, "You seem to be having a good time with the guys."
"I can't lie," I replied. "This hasn't been the worst time of my life."
"I'd feel better if you weren't enjoying it quite as much," he told me. "This is a long way from Iowa."
"Once we go home, this will all be just a memory," I continued.
"Yes, but I think it'll be a better memory for you than for me," Jax told me.
"I'm sorry, Honey," I apologized. "I didn't plan for any of this to happen."
"No, you didn't," he admitted. "This whole thing is mostly my doing. I can't blame you for that."
"I can see that this has been easier for me than for you," I assured him. "Anyway, there's only a few hours left."
"Right, then we can go back to Iowa," he said.
I told him, "Jax, honey, please don't forget that I love you."
I smiled at him, even though I didn't really feel it. "I better get back to my employer."
"Okay, Darry. See you in a bit," was his valedictory.
I kissed him on the cheek, and replied, "Bye, Jax!"
When we got back to the room, and I had once again taken my clothes off, Harry asked me to do some poses. This seemed a little funny to me, but as I was getting horny again. I didn't give it very much thought, treating it as an excuse to wiggle different parts of my anatomy so that my interest would be returned by the guys.
The next couple of hours, we spent with the guys trying to bang me into mindlessness. They had pretty well succeeded by the time Jax was knocking on the door. It was pretty good timing since Harry had just finished inside me. We all put our underwear on before Harry opened the door. Harry went back into the bedroom. I finished fastening my bra and went over to Jax and kissed him. It was a good sign that he kissed me back. He then went over to the dining table and sat down while Harry counted out the remaining seventy-five Franklins. He then counted out fifty more bills with Ben's face on them, saying, "This is for Darlene being the best piece of ass I've had in a very long time."
Then Harry became more serious. He told Jax, "Darlene has been everything I hoped she would be. I'm willing to pay $50,000 for her to spend a week with me."
Jax quickly replied, "I think it's time we headed back to Iowa."
"This is open-ended," rejoined Harry. "You can do it now, or in a month. Let's say the offer is good for six months."
"We need to get back home," continued Jax.
"Fifty thousand might come in handy in the future, or I could come here a week ahead of you, and we would have a good stake for some fun while we stayed here for a week or so. We could have quite a party with that kind of money." I felt satisfied for the time being, but I was thinking another party with the guys would be fun in a few weeks. I knew Jax wouldn't like it, but I would. I would be willing to do it for a lot less than fifty thousand, maybe even for free.
Harry looked at me and correctly read that I didn't want to push it with Jax. Jax and I said good-bye and headed for the elevators.
Back in our room, Jax began a hard, but necessary, conversation, "Darry, I think you enjoyed this a lot more than I did."
"Probably," I admitted. "It really wasn't all that bad."
"Were they screwing you most of the time over the last thirty-six hours?" he asked.
"If you counted foreplay with the screwing, I was probably getting screwed the majority of the time, but not all the time. We played some games, we slept, we ate, we talked. I probably was naked about 90% of the time.," I admitted.
"The basic question is 'did you enjoy it?', or putting it another way, 'would you want to do it again?'" he asked.
This was hard. I had to think about it before I responded. I decided to be as truthful as I could be without burning any bridges and being considerate of Jax's feelings. "I enjoyed a lot of it," I told him. "Doing it again is an entirely different thing. So, we could have a fun time with twenty-five or thirty thousand dollars, that wouldn't be a problem for me. At the end of the day, I want to be with you. Once in a while, I might be willing to have some fun with other playmates."
"I'm not sure we will ever go back to the way we were, but I love you, and I want you to stay with me," Jax stated. "But are you saying that you might like to have a weekend with a couple of guys every so often?"
"I'm not sure what I'm saying. I haven't really thought it through, "I admitted. "Maybe we could have a threesome every month or so. I really don't know." This was very hard. My truest feeling was that I didn't want to say never again to getting a thorough banging from Harry and friends.
"Well, let's see what the future brings," Jax summarized. "Let's get some sleep so we can make our flight in the morning."
After showering I snuggled up against Jax, and he reminded me how much I enjoyed screwing him, as we had reclaiming sex. It didn't have the exotic eroticism of doing Harry and company; I had gotten to like performing with guys watching, but it was honest banging, and I thoroughly enjoyed it. Life in Iowa with only one lover wasn't the worst thing that could happen to a lady, especially if he was as good as Jax.
On the flight back, we enjoyed each other's company, but it wasn't quite the same. I could tell that Jax was a little worried about losing me. I didn't want to lose him, but I had thoroughly enjoyed the thirty-six hours of pretty much constant lovemaking. I didn't think that was the life for me, but a periodic thorough reaming was something that I could enjoy. I was thinking that a week in Vegas with some horny guys would be quite pleasant.
We settled back into life on Main Street America, Iowa-style. I was beginning to think about calling Harry for some sort of rendezvous, when Jax brought something home one night. It was a video. One of Jax's friends had found it at an adult erotica store. The cover showed a nude Darlene with Billy and Jake smiling over my shoulders. It was entitled, "Barbie Models for Hubby's Boss." There was no doubt it was me. It looked like I had become an unintentional porn star.
"Did you know anything about this?" Jax asked.
"No," I emphatically replied. "I knew Harry was taking video, but he assured us that it wouldn't be released commercially."
"So, he lied to us?" Jax continued.
"It appears so," I admitted. "I'm going to call him and see what he has to say."
"Hi, Harry," I opened up our conversation, "This is Barbie, the model."
"Oh, Darlene," he replied. At least there was no Barbie who. "I guess I should have warned you. The video was so hot, I couldn't keep it to myself. I didn't think it would get to Iowa. I have to admit, though, it has been very popular."
"Did you even consider what this does to me?" I interrogated him. "People here might buy something like this but that won't stop them from thinking and saying that I'm a wanton slut."
"Isn't that what you are?" he replied. "You certainly acted like it for a good thirty-six hours. Look, I can get you all of the work you want. Say the word and I'll mail you a plane ticket."
I wanted to maintain my righteous anger, but the thought of being nude and on my back in a Vegas suite was appealing. "What are you saying, Harry?"
"Of course, I'd like to have you in my suite, but the big picture is that you're a hot property in our industry, I can guarantee you a six-figure income for a few days' work a week." Harry the big talker was in good form.
The truth was that the sound of his voice was making me horny. I didn't like the distribution of a video or videos of my nude ass being fucked, yet somehow it didn't seem to be completely terrible. I was feeling the lust I felt the first time he fucked me. I had this conflict between not wanting every man to see me buck naked and it being exciting to think of guys watching me get banged. The day and a half in Harry's suite was the best sex I had ever had. Honestly, if I was there, I would already be undressing. I heard myself asking, "What's your proposal, Harry?"
"There are two parts to my proposal," he explained. "Part one is that you stay in my suite, nude most of the time, and on your back a lot of the time. Part two is that you formally work in the industry. I believe that you can easily make over a quarter of a million dollars a year."
"The industry is making porn films, right?" I asked. I couldn't believe I was seriously considering going back to Vegas and leaving Iowa and Jax behind.
"Yes," Harry replied. "You have two immense talents: No one screws like you do, and you are an excellent porn actress."
"So, you would like to take advantage of two of my talents?" I asked him a little sarcastically.
"Of course, I would. I think any man would but some of us are more deserving than others. I'm sure there aren't many who can offer over a quarter of a million annually." He continued, "Where should I mail your plane ticket?"
I wanted the little house with a picket fence and a baby or two inside, but I also wanted what Harry was offering. Was there a way to get both? All I could do was talk to Jax. It would be a lot to ask him, but I told myself, it would be worse not to ask. If there was a way, it might have Jax in it. I loved Jax, although I didn't love him blindly the way I once did. In my mind, it was possible to love Jax, and still lust for the kind of banging that Harry had provided. It would be easier if I didn't have such a slut drive. I really had enjoyed being enjoyed by three men at the same time.
"Jax, we need to talk," I told him that night. I could tell he wasn't happy. He might be even less happy when he heard what I had to say.
"What is it, hon?" he asked trying to sound casual.
"I talked to Harry. He wants me to come to Vegas and make porn films." I continued, "He says I can easily make a quarter of a million dollars a year or more. I'm considering it, but there's some pieces missing."
"What's missing?" Jax asked, with an edge to his voice. "if that's what you want, you should go for it."
"I want it, but I want more," I replied. "I want children and a husband that loves me."
"You already have that," he informed me, "At least a husband who loves you. I've always thought we would have children; maybe not now but in a few years."
"Maybe I'm a selfish bitch, but I want both. I think that I would enjoy the porn star life, but I also want the cottage with a loving husband and babies," I continued. "Is there any way that I can have both?"
"You want the public life of a whore and the private life of a mommy, is that it?" Jax inquired.
"It does sound like that, doesn't it?" I admitted. "I love you. I enjoy having sex with you. It's just I can't get out of my mind, the pleasures of the time I spent with Harry and his friends."
"Once a whore, always a whore, is that it?" Jax gruffly asked.
"Maybe, but I've also enjoyed the sweetness of a relationship with you," I informed him. "It's two different lives. It's just that I want both."
"What do you think it would be like?" Jax asked. "What would it be like for me? What would it be like for you?"
"I could see myself spending a week or ten days in Vegas a month, and the rest of my time here with you." I continued, "I wouldn't make the quarter of a million Harry was talking about, but I would still have you, and like you said earlier, in a few years I could get pregnant, and retire from the porn stuff. I suppose you would be embarrassed that for the price of a CD, anybody could see my naked body and watch me screwing."
"I guess there's two things about that. One is I can tell the difference in your lovemaking from before Vegas and after. You were always great; but now you're even better. The other thing is that with regard to the CD's there can be a certain amount of, "Eat your hearts out, guys! That's what I get every night, or at least, every night when you're not in Vegas."
I couldn't help myself. "I love you, Jax!" I told him, and impulsively kissed him.
"But," Jax interrupted my joy, "while you're in Vegas, I'm sitting here all alone, thinking about you having your pussy used by God only knows who. As a porn star, you're going to have all of your holes used, probably by big black cocks as well as plenty of others. You may even end up making out with other women. I just don't think I could stand that. For me, the only consolation is the big money involved. What worries me is that I think you would actually like the work. You really weren't upset at the preview video Christy sent out with our permissions. I'm beginning to think this is more than I can handle. I'm sorry, Darry. I'm afraid you're going to have to decide between Iowa and Vegas. Maybe you can find a man who wants to be married to a porn star. I don't think I'm that man."
I told him, "This isn't sounding like what I want, Jax. I love you. Now, I'm feeling a bit betrayed. You started me off on this path, but now you want to turn your back on me. Am I no longer the woman you love?" I put my hands on his shoulders and faced him. I wanted what I wanted even if it might not be one hundred percent what he wanted.
He replied, "I love you, but I don't think I can deal with you becoming a porn star."
I kissed him on the mouth. The kiss became a succession of ever deepening kisses. I had forgotten how much I loved this man and loved banging him, which is what we did. Afterward, as I lay in his arms, I asked him if we could come to an agreement.
He responded, "What I value most is our togetherness. I just don't think that I can learn to live with you being fucked in public media. I don't think it's the money alone. I think your being a porn star simply doesn't have the attraction for me that it seems to have for you."
I could tell that the life I wanted with Jax was slipping away. "I'm sorry, Jax," I apologized. "I didn't know that I had this wanton streak that allows me to enjoy multiple partners at the same time. The truth is that now I feel like I need it."
He gave me his life is hard look.
I told Harry to send me a ticket. I knew it would piss Jax, but when I came back, horny for his love, and with tons of money, I was confident that I could bring him on board, with our practiced loving, and the new techniques I would learn in my new profession. I was sure that he would miss me while I was gone to Los Angeles, which was the heart of the porn industry, and also Harry's principal place of business.
I wasn't surprised that when I got to Harry's suite, I was asked to take my clothes off. I was surprised when he spanked me, not gently. When I complained, he told me, "I'm sure you've been a bad girl, while you were away. That's what this is for."
After the immediate pain was gone, I liked the way my buttocks felt. It seemed appropriate that my next torture was to have a dildo thrust into my poor vagina. I got another start when a smaller dildo was inserted in my rectum. Again, I didn't like it at first, but the second sensations were much better. By the end of the week, I was making double penetration videos. Each day, after the video making was over, I spent the night with Harry and often one or more of his friends. I knew I would have to be circumspect about what I told Jax and what stayed in Vegas, or LA.
Later I found out what I had gotten myself into. Harry's primary business interest was porn film production. Billy was a porn film cinematographer and Jake was a porn film star. By the time I learned how I had been set up, the die was cast: I was rapidly becoming an established porn star. My first trip lasted ten days, in addition to entertaining Harry and friends, I completed six films. I was optimistic about my return to Iowa when Jax agreed to meet me at the airport.
When I greeted him with a big kiss, he seemed less than enthusiastic. He gave me a tight-lipped let's get your luggage. I had more than I left with because of the multiple outfits I acquired in LA, some of them not suitable for general use in Iowa.
He didn't grumble about the extra luggage, but once we were on the way home, he told me, "Darlene, I've filed for divorce."
This was definitely a setback to my plans. I replied with as much equanimity as I could manage, "I understand, honey. I'm sorry that I have disappointed you. I still want you to reclaim me when we get home. As far as a divorce is concerned, you know that I don't want it, but I feel like I owe it to you to be cooperative. I love you and I've missed you while I was in Los Angeles."
My strategy became sugar and sweetness in the face of vinegar and a little vitriol, such as asking if he needed to worry about STD's.
He was willing to make love to me in spite of the planned divorce. Rather than the embarrassment of being served, I went to his attorney's office with my attorney and signed the papers. I had more assets and more income, so we split the assets 50/50 and agreed to no maintenance. His share of my earnings as an actress meant that he would be comfortable, and he could keep the store out of financial trouble. He was able to use some of the divorce settlement to increase his interest in the store to almost forty percent.
I continued coming back to Iowa and sleeping with Jax on approximately two-week intervals, but I was gradually forced to accept that it was over with Jax. After the divorce was final, I only came back once. Intermittently I had a PI give me a report on what was going on with him. He established liaisons with several women. He seemed to have an active night life, but never seemed to settle on one woman, which was good from my point-of-view.